Love Yourself

Chapter 26

"Hey momma." I walked into the kitchen where my mom was.

"Hey honey." I gave her a hug before sitting at the counter.

"Where's the little ones?"

"With Jason."

Ever since he has come back things have been different. He has a place here and even has a girlfriend. We have come along way in all of this. The kids still call Declan dad, just like they do to Jason. They know Declan is their step dad while Jason is their dad. A lot of my worry has diminished, but there's still times I can't help it.

"How is that going?"

"Good."

"What?" She frowned looking me over.

"This is going to sound super selfish. I wish he hadn't showed up, so I wouldn't have to share them. It is great and all but he's just."

"I know honey, and your not wrong thinking that. I went through the same thing. Yes, my story is a tad different, but I know where your coming from." I nodded, watching her.

She's right, out of everyone I can relate to her the most. We've both raised our kids on our own and had problems with their father's. I did get lucky with Declan and I do see a future with us. My feelings for Jason are gone, were mainly just civil for the kids. If we didn't have them then I could care less to have him in my life.

The door opened and I looked over to see my sister. Her and Drew are still doing amazing. Last year they welcomed their third little boy into the world, little Nathan Christian. She was pretty upset that she wasn't getting her girl, but she loves her boys.

"Is Amanda coming?" Sophia asked.

"Yea shes on her way."

"The boys with Drew?"

"Yea he took them to see his parents."

"Sorry I'm late." I quickly turned around seeing my sister in law with my niece strapped against her chest.

"Sorry I had to bring her, Cohen got called into work."

"Don't be sorry, we would love to spend time with her." She gave her daughter a kiss on the forehead before sitting next to me.

"Let me see her."

"She's nursing."

"You can't even tell."

Amanda and my brother got married last year. Honestly, I can't believe it took them that long to get married. Right after they were married they got pregnant. Little Shae Alexis was born two months ago.

"How have you been holding up?"

"I'm getting there. Cohen has been so amazing and I'm so thankful for him. Finally, I've been getting some more sleep."

"So, when are you and Declan going to give me another grand baby?" She asked smiling at me. My sisters still don't know I'm pregnant.

"Hopefully in the near future and then that will be it. What do you think sis, you going to try for a girl?"

"I don't think so. I'm happy with my boys. Besides I feel like of we try again, we'll just get another boy."

"Probably right."

"What would you want Ellie?"

"I think another boy, but I don't know."

"Hey where's daddy?"

"He's with poppa." A sense of sadness filled the room. My nana had passed away four months ago. It's been hard on all of us, especially my mom and poppa.