Myself- A Broken Creation

Chapter 23: Xander's P.O.V.

I had been stuck in here for weeks. I knew Alex was worried, but I just couldn't take this anymore! I hated being forced to stay here for so long! Plus, I still didn't know how Jane was doing. I wanted to know how she was! Alex wouldn't let me leave, either. I knew it was only for my safety, but I was tired of it!

I was pacing around his bedroom in anxiousness with my hands spearing into my hair. I tugged at the golden tendrils in irritation. This was killing me! I wasn't used to staying in one place for more than a couple of weeks and I had been here for two months! I groaned. I felt all cramped up and confined and I couldn't stand it!

Stephanie and Brandon had just decided to do their wedding here. Alex hadn't made them stay here, but they had decided to anyway. Brandon didn't want to get Stephanie hurt and was somehow understanding about all of this. I would have expected for him to be upset with me because I was upset at me, but he wasn't. Not at all.

They were having it today and we were setting stuff up, but it was early in the morning and no one else was awake. Alex was asleep in his bed. We hadn't made love since that night and I was a little worried. Did he no longer want me? I shook it out of my head. I couldn't worry about that. I had much more important things to worry about...so why was I so focused on that?

I was sure that my fears were unfounded, just like they always were. We had just been busy and stressed out and I honestly hadn't felt up to anything lately anyway. We had just been so emotional lately and I couldn't help it. Why was he so worried? They would have made a move by now, wouldn't they?

I felt like I was going insane and just couldn't stop worrying and worrying. What if they did hurt me? What then? What if they accidentally hurt their son, who they seemed to enjoy mentally torturing? I couldn't bear to lose him, but I was so confused and angry and just plain overwhelmed.

I gasped and jumped as I felt arms wrap around my waist. He nuzzled my neck with his nose and I sighed. My entire body trembled as my muscles released all their tension. His hand slid up my bare stomach and the skin there quivered as he released a path of intoxicating heat. I wanted him so badly, but was afraid to say anything. What if he was tired of me now and was just protecting me because he was a good person?

"Come on, let's go back to bed, sweetheart," He whispered, his lips caressing the soft skin of my neck.

I shuddered when I heard the intention behind his words. He did still want me. The sensuous tone of his voice slid over my skin and wrapped me in ribbons made of satin. We walked over there, and it felt like a dream. Alex gently pulled me down next to him and pulled me into a pleasurable world as he kissed my lips.

His hand went to cup my round boxer-clad bottom and I moaned against his lips. His hands kneaded my flesh and I jerked against him. His lips slid from mine and swept along my sensitive neck. I quivered against his hard form in anticipation. It felt like it had been so long since we had had any intimacy. So long.

"I missed your silky, sweet, soft skin against mine," He murmured in my ear.

My eyes fluttered closed at the arousal that his words made blossom inside of me. I didn't want him to go slow tonight. I wanted him to ravage me, but felt too shy to say that. I think he sensed my feelings, though. He flipped us over so that I was on my stomach and he was on top of me. With any other person, this position would have instantly filled me with fear, but not with Alex. Never with Alex.

His fingers stroked down my back and trailed little paths of ticklish heat. I slightly squirmed underneath him at the sensations, but he stilled me by placing his hands on my hips. It was a gentle move, but he was firm. He dotted kisses all up the muscles of my back, his tongue darting out to lick at the skin.