Divergent High

Chapter 18

Tris
It's dark, and I couldn't feel anything. I looked down and I saw my body, with Tobias crying next to me.
No, he shouldn't be crying. He can't be crying over me. I'm just one person. I'm not worth it.
Then I remember something he said to me after I was beat by my father.
~~FLASHBACK~~
I was crying and bleeding, and he held me carefully while he cleaned my wounds. I cried into his shoulder and whispered, "Tobias, just go. I don't want you to get hurt."
He smiled sadly and said, "Nonsense. I'm staying here." He kissed my forehead carefully and held me gently in his arms.
"Why? I'm just one person, you know, I'm not worth it." I say, crying again.
He lifted my chin to look at him. "Hey, don't say that. You are worth it. You're worth it to me."
~~FLASHBACK ENDS~~
I want to go back. I want to go back to him. He needs me, and I need him. I squeeze my eyes shut and wish with my entire soul to go back, to will my spirit back into my body.
When I open my eyes, I see a white door, and I slowly walk to it. I turn the handle and walk into a bright light, into my destiny.
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Tobias
I cry by her body for who knows how long. I miss her so much already. She was my life, my reason to live. Now there was no reason for anything, nothing to live for, nothing.
I don't want to live without Tris. I can't live without Tris.
"Tris, I miss you so much. Please fight for me. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry this happened to you. It should've been me. I love you so much. More than you'll ever know. Please come back to me," I say, my voice breaking at the end.
      I don't remember ever crying this much over anything, or anyone. Not even at my mother's funeral. But Tris is everything to me, even if I only met her a few days ago.
      I almost laugh at the thought. It's only been a few days, and this girl is already my life. I guess it was just meant to be.
          ~~TWO HOURS LATER~~
      I was sleeping, next to Tris' bed, of course, when all of a sudden her heart monitor started beeping like crazy. Doctors rush in and start connecting wires to her, moving things around the room, and I stand in the corner of the room, helpless as they tried to figure out what was wrong.
      They finally stepped away from her, and one of them motioned for me to go back to her side. I walked back slowly, kneeling by her bed again. I took her pale hand and gently raised it to my lips, kissing it lightly, letting my lips linger there for a few seconds, then lowering her hand back down to her bed.
      I couldn't lose her. I wasn't going to lose her. I would never forgive myself.
      But she would want me to live my life, forget about her, take care of my own needs. I almost smiled at the thought of this. This would probably be the only time I wouldn't listen to her. I love her, but I wasn't going to leave her side. Not ever.
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Well, that was depressing. I repeated myself a lot in that. I just couldn't think of anything to write, and I wanted to end the chapter. Sorry guys, it's short and crappy, but it's an update.
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Nobody wants pain
But you can't have a rainbow Without a little rain."