Divergent High

Chapter 30

Tris
I shake his shoulder over and over again, and he sits there staring off into oblivion.
"Tobias, look at me. Tobias!" I shake him again, panicked at the dazed look in his eyes. He blinks a couple times and looks at me, his expression unreadable. I throw my arms around his neck and sob on his shoulder, thankful that he's here with me forever.
"Shh, it'll be okay, Princess. It's okay." He says soothing words over and over again in my ear, stroking my hair and holding me against him.
I pull away a little and give him a small smile. "You're gonna be a dad."
He laughs a little and kisses the tip of my nose gently, as if not wanting to upset me. "And you're gonna be a mum."
And that sets me off again. I let out a strangled sound, sobbing again, my emotions out of control.
Tobias just holds me against him and kisses my hair every so often, stroking my cheek softly the whole time.
And I just held onto him tightly and was grateful for his arms around me, for his very presence that resulted in a sort of calming mood in me.
We stayed like that for a while, holding onto each other, as the tide of grief slowly came in... and came back out.
~~~MAGICAL AND BOOTYFULL TIME SKIP TO 2 MONTHS LATER~~
      I was laying on the couch, rubbing my stomach. It had gotten bigger since that first visit to the doctor.
      Tobias had told Gus that he couldn't work right now because of our situation but that he'd maybe return a while later. Maybe.
      They had fixed the internal bleeding momentarily, but they had said it would probably start back up again in maybe 1-2 years. They needed to perform surgeries to fix it, and I was pregnant, so they couldn't do the surgeries they needed to do.
      Tobias had gone out of his way to be there for me, and when I would have nightmares he would hold me tightly while I sobbed on his shoulder. He'd whisper soothing words to me and stroke my hair, kissing my forehead and leaving his lips there until I grew tired and fell asleep in his arms.
      And I'd sometimes crack open the bedroom door at night and see him in the living room, his head in his hands, his shoulders shaking violently as if he was sobbing silently. And I'd just leave him there to his own sadness, leaving him to have some alone time with himself.
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Tobias
      I thought she was sleeping. I was in the living room, sobbing silently, scared to death for Tris. My head was in my hands and I could feel waves of sadness coming over me, crashing harder against me each time they came.
      Then I heard her crack open the door, probably thinking I was weak and tired of helping her. After a few minutes, she walked back into the bedroom and lay down on the bed.
      I took in a shaky breath and stood up, running my hands through my hair. I felt that my hands, just like every other part of my body at the moment, were shaking violently.
      I exhaled shakily and walked into the bedroom, laying down carefully next to Tris. I wrapped my arms around her gently, trying not to wake her.
      Of course, that plan failed.
      She turned and seemed a little frightened at how red my eyes probably were. She stroked my cheek and I closed my eyes, knowing I'd have to explain to her what I was doing in the living room at 2 AM. "Tobias, what happened?"
       Nothing, except for the fact that I might lose you and that I won't be able to live if I lost you. "Nothing, it's fine."
      "I saw you, Tobias. You were sobbing in the living room. Why? What happened?" she asked softly, still stroking my face and wiping away the tear streaks.
      "Nothing, I just..." I sighed a little. "I guess I just kinda broke down for a second."
      No more than a second after I said that, she kissed me. She kissed me as if the world was ending, as if we would never see each other again.
      She wrapped her arms around my neck and I felt sparks every place her skin touched mine. I kissed back, placing my hand on her cheek and putting my other hand on her side, pulling her closer to me.
      Tris pulled back a little and smiled, whispering, "That's the boy I know and love with my whole soul."
      I chuckled and kissed her again, my whole world in front of my eyes.
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