swirl ›› cameron dallas

seventy six

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{breanna's pov}
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"I bought you what you asked." Destiny said placing a bag over my desk.

"Thank you." I replied looking up from my computer and then closed it.

"Aren't you going to take it ?" She asked me chuckling.

"Yeah yeah...I'm going."

I got up from my desk and went to the bathroom, shutting and locking the door before taking the test.

The minute long wait felt like an eternity as I paced the white and cold bathroom wall. Butterflies were in my stomach, please be positive.

My heart dropped into the pit of my stomach when the little sign popped up on the test stick. Negative.

I threw it into the trash and went to my office again.

"So...?" Destiny asked excited.

"Negative..." I shrugged sitting down.

"Oh, don't worry, next time it will be positive..."

"Destiny, we've been trying for months already and it's always negative."

"One day it will be positive, I know it."

"I'm afraid Des..."

Destiny walked next to me and hugged me, letting me rest my head against her stomach.

"Don't worry..."

"Talking about better things, how's Romeo ?" I asked.

"He went to LA to visit his brother. I miss him."

"I need to go to LA too, I miss my mom. I've been in New York for a long time and every time I go there, it's just for a day or two."

We heard someone knocking and he walked in.

"Hello..." He said smiling.

"I should go." Destiny said pulling away and then left the office.

I got up and walked next to him.

"How's my girl?" He asked opening his arms.

I wrapped my arms around his torso and Cameron placed a kiss on my forehead, hugging me.

"I'm okay." I replied and he pulled away.

"What's wrong? I know you..."

"I took another pregnancy test today..."

"And...?"

"Negative again..." I said looking into his eyes and he cannot lie, he looked disappointed.

"It's okay..." He replied with a small smile, rubbing my back.

"No, it's not Cameron!!" I said unwrapping his arms. "I know that you're disappointed."

"Okay, I'm a little sad but that's because I'm anxious. I want to have a baby with you, I really do and I feel like I can't wait anymore but it doesn't matter. I just want it to happen. If it wasn't positive now, it will be in the future. Tomorrow, next week, next month, it doesn't matter. I just want it to happen and it will happen Bree!" He said cupping my face with both hands.

"What if...what if I'm the problem ?"

"What?" He asked confused.

"You know exactly what I mean..."

"You're not the problem Breanna, where did that idea come from ?"

"I already took a lot of pregnancy tests and you're not the problem for sure because, well, you have a son!"

"Don't think like that Breanna...you're not the problem..."

"I don't know Cameron..."

"But if you want, we can go to the hospital and see what a doctor says."

"Yes please!"

"You can ask Destiny to do that and then I'll go with you but now don't stress about it, it's even worse."

"I know but I can't help, what if it is true, what if I can't get pregnant ?"

"I'll still love you no matter what."

"It's not the same." I replied removing his hands from my face and walked away.

He followed me, picking me up by my waist and made me sit over my desk.

"Listen, when I fell in love with you, I never thought about having kids or not, I was focused on you. I fell in love with you because of the way you are. I fell in love because of our little moments. And now, you're still the same or even more amazing so I'll never stop loving you and every day, I fall in love even harder. Stop stressing this hard Breanna, seriously. Being parents would be amazing for us but you can't let that stress you like this."

"I just don't want to disappoint you." I replied looking down.

"You're amazing, how could you disappoint me ?" He asked, placing his finger under my chin so he could look at my face.

"I want to be as good as her. She gave you a baby and I want to be able to do that as well but even better. I feel like if I don't, I will disappoint you. You can be here, telling me all those pretty words but I'll not feel complete. She can't be better than me."

"She's not better than you and never will. She's the mother of my son, nothing else. You're the girl that I truly love since high school, maybe even since the day I saw you in that jail, that has to mean something."

"It does and I can say the same about you but..." I was saying but he interrupted kissing me.

"But nothing. We'll go to the doctor and he will tell you that everything is fine, I know it." He replied resting his forehead against mine.

"I truly hope so.'

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this is kinda short I guess but the next chapters will be better.
About the grammar, I feel like updating is more important so I don't play a lot of attention, sorry. I'll take my time to correct everything once I finish the book...

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