swirl ›› cameron dallas

seventy seven

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{breanna's pov}
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5 weeks later.

I was sitting in the waiting room, waiting for them to call my name.

I didn't tell Cameron because I wanted to do this alone, besides that, he had a photoshoot today and I didn't want to bother him.

Since 5 weeks ago, I've been doing exams to know if I can have babies or not. Today, I'll finally get the results.

My leg kept moving because of how nervous I was and my eyes never felt the doctor office's door.

A nurse walked out of the office, reading a paper that she had in her hands.

"Breanna Jones." She called looking up.

I grabbed my bag from the seat next to me while getting up and then walked next to her.

"It's me." I said tucking a strand of hair behind my ear.

"The doctor isn't here today because something happened but she left you an envelope with the results." She said handing me a big, white envelop.

"Thank you so much, can I go home now or...?" I asked and she nodded. "Thank you once again, have a nice day."

I placed the envelop inside my bag leaving the hospital and then got into my car, driving in direction of my apartment.

I parked the car and walked to the front door. I opened it and then placed my over a table while closing the door behind me.

I took a deep breath before taking the envelop off my bag and sat down on the couch of the living room.

I ripped the top of the envelop and pulled out the paper.

My eyes scanned the paper slowly, reading every single word carefully. This was way too important to make any mistake.

Tears started rolling down my cheeks as I read the last words.

I threw the paper to the floor and covered my face with my hands. No, no, no, no...

My phone started vibrating but I declined the call.

I grabbed a pillow from the couch and pressed it against my face to muffle the loud sound of my sobs. This can't be real.

The phone started vibrating again.

"Shut up." I screamed at phone before throwing it on my carpeted floor as if the phone could hear.

I felt my heart racing really fast and I got up from the couch to go to the kitchen to drink a glass of water. My hands shaking as I swallow the water.

I placed the glass in the sink and leaned against the kitchen's wall.

Someone rang the bell and started hitting the door repeatedly.

"Breanna open the door!" He screamed.

"Cameron go away!" I screamed back, my body sliding down the wall.

I heard the sound of the door unlocking and then quick steps.

"What happened ?" He asked kneeling down next to me.

"I told you to go away." I said slowly trying to hold in my sobs.

"I'm not going to leave you, please tell me what's going on!" He said grabbing my hands.

"You don't want to be with me, go away Cameron..."

"Of course that I want to be with you."

"No you don't! I can't give you anything!"

"I don't need anything, what the fuck..."

"Cameron, you're not getting, I can't get pregnant, I can't have kids." I screamed and he stayed quiet.

He wrapped his arms around me, pulling me me closer to his chest. He played with my hair, trying to calm me down but I couldn't hold it anymore.

"Stay calm Bree, we can get through this." He whispered in my ear but I unwrapped his arms.

"What do you mean we can get through this? There's nothing we can do. You need to go away."

"I'm not going anywhere."

"You're right, you don't have to go anywhere. I'm the one that needs to leave your life."

"Breanna, relax, go sleep, take a shower, do something that relaxes you because you're not thinking properly."

"Cameron listen." I said cupping his face with both hands. "You need a family, a future and I can't give you that. I'm useless." I said with my eyes full of tears.

"Stop Breanna, you're all that I want, you're my future no matter what."

"That's not right. You have a kid that needs you. It doesn't make sense, you can't spend your time with me when he needs you. He's your family, he's your future, not me."

"There's space enough for both of you in my life."

"It's not fair..."

"You can't do this to me."

"I can and I will do it. It's not easy for me as well. I'll never be able to hold a baby that it is mine, I'm disappointing you, my family...this is so hard for me Cameron. I feel like shit and I can't make you stay with me."

"I'm staying." He said looking into my eyes.

"You can't, I'm doing this for us. I'll be happy if you stay with your kid and not me. The kids deserves his mother and father together."

"We'll never be together, there's no love between us."

"It will grow. Remember what you told me once, if you love me, you need to go."

"I'm not going anywhere Bree, stop please, I fucking love you, I can't leave you." He said and I noticed a little tear falling down his cheek.

"Do it for me, do it for you and do it for us." I said and then kissed his cheek. I took a deep breath and removed the ring from my finger. I made him open his hand and placed it over it. "I can't, I'm sorry...I guess this is yours now." I said closing his hand so he could hold the engagement ring.

He shook his head and opened his hand again. He repeated my previous actions and gave me the ring again.

"I gave you this ring, it's yours no matter what." He said getting up from the floor and then adjusted his jeans. "I'm going to leave you now but not forever, rest a little and we will talk tomorrow."

"We don't have to talk." I said cleaning my eyes.

"I want to." He said looking back one last time before leaving my apartment.

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