The Wake Up Calls (Camren)

Chapter 23

AN- Okay so I updated for once in my life. So I have finally... sort of gotten over my sulking self about Camila leaving and am now so freaking excited for her and whatever she is going to do. I'm so happy. Parts of this will be terrible because I wrote some of it at like 1:00 in the morning so sorry.

Camila -

We rehearsed for about an hour. I love performing. There's just something special about performing for people, especially my friends.
Taylor stood in the front row while we ran through a few songs. We had just finished our new album at the studio a month ago and we're finally about to release it. So we all decided to sing a new song from the album tonight. We chose 'scared of happy'.
Taylor watched me intently, she had a grin on her face the whole time. I've been friends with Taylor for a year or so now and she is one of the best I've ever had considering I haven't known her that long.
"Okay that will do it. Everything seems good!" Our sound guy yelled out across the stage.
The other 4 girls scrambled off the stage to go to catering for lunch.
I decided to drop down off the stage giving Taylor a hug which seemed to last for hours.
"If you hug me any tighter you might crush me." Taylor laughed.

"Oh sorry I didn't realise." I released her from my grasp my cheeks began to go red.

"Hahaha I'm kidding Mila. Let's go get some lunch." She wrapped her arm around my shoulders and basically escorted me to the catering room.

As soon as we entered I realised there were heaps of cupcakes with candles lining the tables in the middle of the room.
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY WALZ!" Dinah rushed over to me and engulfed me into a hug. I wrapped my leg around her waist. "I love you so much."

"Happy birthday Camila." Ally wrapped her arms around me as well.

"You guys, you didn't have to do this. This looks great thank you from the bottom of my heart." I made my way through the room giving each person a hug. This made me really happy that they had done this, even if it was a small gesture. For a few minutes it made me forget everything going on. Only for a few minutes though.
I began to think about how things will be, when I can't perform anymore, when I tell everyone what is going on. That's if I tell them.
"Camila! Snap out of it, do you want cake or not?" Dinah shoved a plate in my hands.

Once we made our way on stage later that night, everything seemed to go down hill. There was no more happy birthday's from people, no more celebrations. It was time to go on stage, smile and pretend everything was okay.
The crowd echoed through the stadium preventing anything else to be heard. As we made our way onstage I spotted Taylor on the side in the front row. She had a worried look on her face. I smiled at her giving her a quick wave. This made her smile at me. I probably shouldn't have done that because now half the people in the stadium knew she was here and were now fan girling and screaming at her. I hope she didn't mind.
Time seemed to be going really slowly, I felt like I had been out on the stage for an hour but it had only been 25 minutes when I started to feel weak. Dinah was next to me grinding away as she does, whilst I was just struggling to keep up with half the choreography. I think she noticed because she began to slow down and help me vibe with her. It sounds strange but it really helps.
My vision started to go fuzzy, I could feel the tension in my chest rising, my heart was racing. I was panicking.
I dropped my microphone to the hard stage floor.
I tapped Dinah on the shoulder and pointed between myself and the side of the stage, before taking off leaving the four of them left the perform.
I couldn't calm myself down, my breathing was rushed, I felt like I was drowning on the inside with no air to breathe.
I dropped to my hands and knees on the ground clutching at my chest, just trying to get a gasp of breath into my lungs. My pulse was racing, higher and higher, I thought my body was going to explode. Suddenly my vision became blurred like I was being engulfed into a black world.
I felt a warm hand being placed on my neck which brought me back to consciousness. I turned my head to see who it was but I couldn't see past the black spots covering my eyes. That's when she spoke.
"Camila are you okay? What can I do?" It was Taylor.
My breathing increased becoming heavier and quicker as I tried to get air into my lungs.
"Slow down, deep breaths. Just calm down you're okay Camila." She rubbed her hand across my back shoulder blades trying to calm me down.
All of a sudden my chest filled with air relieving my body of tension. It was only then that I realised my eyes were watering and my cheeks were wet, I was crying.
"Hey it's okay, come here." Taylor pulled me upright and crouched down in from of me, pulling me into her body. Her arms wrapped around my small body squeezing me tightly, but not tight enough to hurt my already fragile body. She knew how weak I had been lately.
"Oh my god I'm so sorry. I.. I did t mean to go off like that sorry." I broke the embrace and pushed myself to lean against the closest wall.
"Seriously? Don't be sorry! I think you had a panic attack, are you okay?"
It was only then that I looked at my surroundings to see a group of people crowding around me in a circle. Demi was one of them with a face written with worry.
"Camila? You're not performing the rest of the show. You're done tonight, go get some rest and enjoy your birthday. And guys give her some space." She gave me a quick smile before taking off to I guess tell the rest of my team who were probably worrying just as much as the people standing around me.
"Come on. Let's get you up." Taylor pulled me from the ground, wrapping an arm around my back. I rested my head on her shoulder and we took off towards the fifth harmony dressing room.

As soon as the two of us entered the dressing room I stripped my stage outfit off and jumped straight into the shower. I let the warm water cover my head and body. I just stood there for what felt like an hour when there was a knock at the door before it creaked open.
"Camila? Are you nearly finished?" It was Taylor again.
"Ah.. yeah sorry I won't be a second." I waited another minute before I turned the water off.
I dried myself and got changed into some jeans.
As soon as I exited the bathroom I was surround by questions.
"Camila what the hell? Are you okay?"
"Yes I'm fine Dinah don't worry I just had a panic attack." I left my outfit near the racks for our team to hang up and clean, and stuffed my clothes in my bag.
"Where are you going?" Lauren questioned me when I picked up my back pack.
"I'm going with Taylor for some dinner or something."
"Wait you're not celebrating with us tonight?" Lauren grabbed my arm before I left the room. Taylor wasn't in here anymore so I guess they told her to leave.
"No. I didn't think you guys wanted to do anything so I just said yes."
"Oh. Okay. Well be careful and have a good night I guess." I nodded and left the room.