I've never been trusting in relationships. I've always been suspicious that no one actually wants me around. That no one enjoys my presence. I finally surpassed that stage with you. I trusted you. I trusted our relationship. I trusted that you wanted me. How does anyone expect me to be trusting when the moment I let my guard down someone betrays me?
I've always been obsessed with wedding dresses. With weddings in general. With a house of my own. With the future.
I realize now the reason I am so looking forward to marriage. Because, God, wouldn't it feel amazing to know that your partner will never leave you? That he will never betray you? That he will always love you unconditionally? I realize now that the reason I am in love with the idea of marriage is because I am in love with the idea of having someone I can trust eternally.
But what if that's not reality?
From the youngest ages, we're told that some day we'll meet the one. But what if that's just bullshit? What if there is no
the one?
Today I found out that there are three generations of divorce in my family. Three. And not only that, but there are multiple divorces in each generation.
Not a great track record, huh?
So what if that's my future? What if this idea of unconditional love is just a fantasy? What if it's all just
bullshit?
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Midnight Moments
RomanceThis isn't a story about love. Well, at least it doesn't look like it right now. It's just me. I don't think there's enough out there about what happens when that love ends. What does it look like to be raw and vulnerable? What does it feel like to...
