To The Man Who Will Never See My Worth
I won't be there for you anymore when you are bored. No more midnight calls and sweet messages. You won't hear my sleepy voice again when you call me at 3 A.M. while I am fast asleep. I won't beg you anymore to listen to what am I saying because it is so boring for you. Some of your stories are dull too but I enjoyed every bit of it. You will never hear me laugh again while you crack your silly jokes. Yes, I won't be there for you anymore.
Just so you know, it is so hard for me to do this. I've spent many nights overthinking on how to stop thinking about you. I've shed bucket of tears everytime you made me feel so disliked. I've wrote lots of poems just to express my pain of being ignored by you. But I want you to know that it ends here. No more overthinking. No more tears every night. And for my future poems, they won't be about you anymore. I'm letting my feelings go because it is slowly killing my soul. I'm losing my happiness that is used to burn so brightly inside me.
Thank you for making me realize that I deserve better. Thank you for making me question my self-worth, I am working on it. Thank you for letting me enter your life even if it is just the outermost layer while I've let you touch my core. But the one thing I've wanted to thank you the most is you triggered the poet in me, so thank you.
For the last time, I want to say sorry. Sorry for being so clingy and needy. Sorry if I assumed that you like talking to me everytime that's why I called you every chance I've got. Sorry if I've fell to deep in this pool of emotion when all you've wanted is to chill and just enjoy the heat of the sun. I am so sorry.
Someday, I know someone will enter my life and loves being in it. Someone will enjoy listening to my stories about the books I've read and the songs I like. Someone will call me just to know how is my day going and will cheer me up if it is not so well. Someone will text me good morning and good night with a smiley. Someone will appreciate my poems and beg me to make more. It is so heartbreaking that you never did but someday, I know someone will see my worth.
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