“What the hell do you think you are doing?!” I practically yelled.
“First keep your voice down, second I’m eating pizza rolls that Niall made for breakfast and third, I’m just looking through his dresser and closest.” She said a bit too innocent.
“Then why do you have my camcorder? Wait, is that on?!” I asked.
“Maybe it is, maybe it isn’t.”
“You are definitely out of you god damn mind. What were you planning on doing with that, anyways?”
“Oh, I dunno. Possibly put it on your vlog and-“
“And do what?! Embarrass the bloody hell out of him? You know they all watch my vlog.”
“Yah, I know.”
“Mica, you are NOT putting that on my vlog. Stop pointing it at me and turn it off now! I’m so watching you edit next time.”
Just then Niall, Zayn, and Keegan came walking into the room. Once again, someone was in their boxers, this time it was Zayn. All three of them looked really confused so I had to make up some story about how I was making a new video, to explain why I haven’t posted any in a while. Luckily they all accepted it. And I finally got my camcorder back from Mickena. I looked at Zayn and he was staring at my arm, which had the sleeves rolled up. ‘Shit! I forgot to rewrap it after my shower. Okay, I really have to tell them now.’ I quickly pulled my sleeve down and ran back to my room, Mickena followed me. She must have told them to stay there.
She had her arms around me and I was sobbing into her shoulder. I really don’t know why I was crying but it felt good to just let it out. I cried for about 10 minutes and after I was done, Mickena wiped my tears away and kissed me on the forehead.
“I love you baby girl and don’t you ever forget that” she said.
“I love you to boo and I didn’t plan on it” I said “I have to tell them now. Niall doesn’t want me to, but Zayn knows now and so does Keegan. I might as well clear things up for them.”
She looked at me worried because she knew that I’d have to tell them the reason why I started and that its one of my biggest triggers. Anything that reminds of it can trigger it, the slightest noise or faintest smell and I’m gone.
“Mic, please don’t look at me like that. You know I have to tell them, there’s no way around it.” I said.
“I know, I know. I’m just worried about you” she had said.
“Can you tell them to meet in the living room in about 10 minutes and that I need to talk to them? Pretty please?” I asked, kind of sounding like a little kid.
“Yah, I guess I can. Do you want me to video tape it just in case you want to tell your subscribers about it to?”
“Uhh, yah, go ahead and I’ll ask them after, if they want me tell them. One more thing, can you tell Niall not to comfort me while I’m telling them, please?”
“I sure can” she said walking out of the room.
After she left I changed into a pair of booty shorts and a tank top. Then I put a pair of sweat pants and a hoodie over them, I took a deep breath and said to myself “Here we go, I can do this. This day is going to be stressful and full of talks.” I just stood there for a few minutes before going out to the living room.
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Heyy guys. Sorry this chapter isn't very good. I had writers block for a while and my thoughts weren't the greatest. And I also relapsed tonight, too. I'm sorry. I love you guys. Stay Strong, please. It's worth it.<3
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