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"Lill, not here please" he whispered, harshly.

"Okay, Ni, when we get home we will talk about this" I said.

"Fine" he said "where's your food at, Lillie?"

"Oh, I'm not that hungry, I thought I'd eat off of Liam's. Oh by the way, you and Keegan make a cute couple, too" I said with a little wink. He blushed so bad, I giggled a little bit.

*Later that night back in the flat*

I was laying on my bed with my notebook, writing my script for my next video. Next thing I know, I couldn't see anything and I felt the weight of somebody's body on mine. I couldn't tell who it was but it definitely wasn't Mickena because they were to light.

"Okay, it's either Niall or Liam. Which one?" I said.

"It's both!" they said in unison tickling my sides.

"S-stop. It. P-please!" I said in between laughs and squirming "Stop, that tickles! Pleaseeeeeeee!" They finally stopped and got off of me, sitting on the edge of the bed, one on each side. They both looked at me with concerned, worried eyes.

"May, I help you?" I asked.

"We need to talk" Niall said. 'God, I hate when people tell me that.'

"Okayy? About what?" I said cautiously.

"Umm, about you and Niall, Niall and Keegan, me and you and Niall's scars" Liam said slowly.

"Hey! I love my scars, very much! They show every battle I've been through" Niall said defensively.

"Ni, you know that's not what I mean. You know I mean why you started sel- er um cut- er um, y-you know what I mean" Liam sputtered uncomfortably.

"You mean self-harming or cutting?" I said, "it doesn't offended me if you say either one and I'm sure Niall feels the same way."

"She's right, Liam. We are labeled self-harmer's and it definitely doesn't offended me and her. Just be careful how you use self-harmer and/or cutter, please" Niall added sweetly.

I felt bad for Liam, not feeling comfortable enough to use even the least offensive term, self-harmer. I don't really like the term cutter very much but it's a lot better than emo or suicidal or attention seeker. And I especially hate it when people make cutting jokes, too. They are not funny what so ever, you really have to be an asshole to make those jokes because you never know if someone in that group of people actually does it.

I must have spaced out in thought because Liam was kind of shaking my shoulder saying "Earth to Lillianne? You home? Hello? Lillianne!"

"Huh? Um what?" I said, confused.

"We were talking about what we want to be called" Niall confided.

"Oh, yah! That's right. Sorry." I said scratching the back of my neck, "So, Liam, you said that you wanted to talk about what's going on between us?" I looked at Liam and saw him blushing...'I hope that's a good sign.'

"Lillianne Marie Lowe, I really really really like you. When I saw you wearing that Niall dogtag, I got heart broken" he said grabbing my hand and looking into my eyes, "I may not have known you personally, but I fell for you because of your vlogs. And then at dinner when that hostess checked me out, you got really jealous, I honestly loved it. I knew from that moment that you liked me back."

"Wait, you really like me back? But I'm so messed up...my life is messed up...my mind is just...how?!" I said sounding smaller than I meant.

"I don't know how, I just like you a lot. I can't explain it and I don't think I ever want to be able to, Lill" Liam sweetly and caringly said.

"Awe, Li" I said, "I probably should say this to put this to rest. When I first found One Direction, I loved that blonde hair, blue eyed boy who eat everything! But I always felt something for the guy who was always looking out for the four other boys. When I came to, I guess I was in shock that Niall supposedly liked me back that I didn't think about it, but now I see he likes Keegan and that I like Liam a lot. Holy crap! I kissed a gay guy! Niall I'm so so so sorry, I had no idea!" I said turning to Niall.

"It's alright, I promise. Me and Keegan didn't have any idea how to tell you and didn't want to break your heart. And before you ask we've been together roughly two weeks" Niall said triumphantly.

"Awe, congratulations. I'm happy for you two. So when I was mostly unconscious who had taken care of me then?" I asked, curiosity raising in my voice.

"Well, it was mainly Niall, Keegan and me. But I spent most of my time sitting with you and watching over you" Liam sounded really shy, "Oh! After we're done talking we have a surprise for you, too. Don't let is forget it. Okay?"

"Okay, I won't! All we have left to talk about is why Niall started self-harming, right?" I asked.

"Yah, that's right" Niall said, taking a deep breath, "The reason I started wasn't because my home life was terrible. In fact my home life was amazing! But the kids at school, the bullies, made my life a living hell. The teasing, the picking, the punches, the kicks, and the stupid rumors. Every single day while I was at school. Always being told you're worthless, you're stupid and fat, you're not important, and you're just a waste of space, everyday really gets to your head and after awhile you start to believe it. My meantal pain was so bad that I decided to take it out on myself. I hated me and who I was."

"Niall...I'm so sorry you had to go through that. Did Keegan do something to make you relapse?!" I said sounding harsher than I wanted.

"Yes and well no. I told him that I cut and he flipped out. I thought he was going to leave me, I knew he wasn't though because his best friend did it. The voices in my head wouldn't stop and kept telling that he was and that I was stupid and fat and worthless" he explained so I wouldn't go kill Keegan.

I yawned, not meaning to but talking for awhile can really take it out of you. "We're almost done here, I promise," Liam, reassuringly said, "but before we give you your surprise I need to ask you something." With that he stood up taking me with him. He grabbed both my hands in his and looked deep into my eyes before speaking.

"Lillianne Marie Lowe, will you do me the extraordinary honor of being my girlfriend?" he asked on a shakey breath.

"Liam James Payne, I would be honored to call you my boyfriend. So yes!" I said as I hugged him.

During our hug Niall said that my surprise was here. When I looked up I did not expect it to be who I saw.