“I had it because you kept pulling at it and I didn't want you to hurt yourself” he said softly.
I said thanks again and sat back silently thinking about everything that I just found out. 'Niall cuts like me, i'm now part of One Direction, I'm now living in North London with the boys.' Then my mind filled rapidly with questions, 'Why does he do it?, Does my mum and dad know about my accident? Where are my best friends, Keegan and Mickena? Do I want to tell the boys that I self-harm? Do they know Niall does?' So many more questions flood my brain and the pain of not knowing where Keegan and Mickena are, drove me to the edge. I got up and ran to my room locking the door. I grab my make-up bag 'Thank god they didn't unpack this for me', I found my blade. I cut right through the bandages on my arm, causing it to bleed, again. I lost track after nine medium sized cuts.
The next thing I knew, Niall had his arms around me and I'm sobbing into his chest, repeating 'I'm sorry'. It took him a while to calm me down; after I was calmed down he helped me clean up my arm and manged to re-wrap it, too. 'Great, now I have to be even more careful and now Niall knows' I think as he finishes wrapping my arm, 'I really should talk to him about it. Gosh, he smells so good...oh my, his eyes are so, they're just, wow.' Just before he leaves to put the first aid kit away, he leans down and kisses my forehead, not saying anything. It didn't take him that long to put it away because he was back in front of me before I could even call after him.
“Lillie, dear, please don't do it again? I don't want the guys finding out” he said lifting my chin, forcing me to make eye contact with him.
“I'll try not to, no promises. But w-” I said.
“Good. It is getting late and I don't want to risk you cutting again, so I'll just tell the guys we can finish talking tomorrow. Oh and by the way they all think you're missing home and broke down in tears” he said interrupting me with a playful smile on his lips as he walked out of the room.
I just sat there thinking 'How am I going to tell them? Am I going to tell? Are they going to send me to treatment? I don't want to go it would be hell, so I’ve heard. Is he going to ask why I started?' Just thinking about why I started, made me want to to do it again. I sat there as long as I could before I got up to find my blade again. As I found it and put it to my arm, Niall came in. He ran over to me, stopping the blade from being drug acrossed my arm.
“Lillianne Marie Lowe!”
'Shit! It cant be' I thought before turning around.
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Who came in the room? Was it her best friends or was it the boys? And why did Niall start? You'll have to wait for the next update(: Love you guys<3
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Genç Kurgu17 year old, Lillianne Marie Lowe, never could have guessed that one day she'd be sitting in One Direction's flat on a day in June. With her troubled and not so healthy past and a torn family, she never would have guessed what would be happening to...
