The boy in the hallway

I felt electricity 💚

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AIDEN"S POV: 

[ 2 DAYS AFTER ISABEL"S DEATH]

The sound of my alarm wakes me up. I wake up startled. I honestly keep hoping that everything that has happened over these past few days has all been a dream. But it isn't"t.. I keep waiting to suddenly wake up. But I don"t. 

 I have school today. Which I"m not looking forward to.. 

I remember when I first met Isabel.. When she bumped into me. I could smell her sweet fragrance.
and when she turned round I did notice that she was very pretty..

And for a moment we just stared into each other"s eyes. I wish I could turn back time..... and that in that moment I would have pulled her towards me and kissed her. 

When she stepped out of the bathroom wearing the clothes that I lent her I could feel my mouth dropping.. I stared at her in awe. Even then I noticed her curves.. I knew she was pretty then.. but I never really thought about it properly. Until now... 

I guess I never realised how attracted to her I was..
When I was partnered with her I felt pretty happy..
I loved how she had her rants in the corridors..
and how embarrassed she would get after them..
What I loved is that she was a beautiful girl..
but unlike other girls she never showed off her beauty by wearing slutty clothes. She was shy about herself.. but in a good way.

When I saw her in the store I almost laughed out loud when I saw her scowling at the ice cream section.  I honestly found  it sexy when she was  pissed about something.  I invited her over because I actually wanted to get to know her.. Not because I wanted her.. But because I wanted to see Isabel"s true personality. 

When I threw her in the pool it was because I knew she wanted to go in.. so why not go in in our clothes together... 

As I was running with her over my shoulder I decided to jump with her. As I did I felt her hand on mine. And I swear I felt electricity.

 Panic surged through me when she screamed. And I swam over as fast as possible.. But I shortly calmed down when we had the most fun water fight.
When I stepped out I did not care that my shirt and hers were both sea through. 

When she rubbed my crotch I found it so hysterical that she honestly thought it was part of the sofa.
But if I"m being honest it felt pretty dammn good..

As she left the house I did feel sad... but I let her go because I knew that she was embarrassed, and I also knew I"d see her tomorrow.

 If only I"d  known that it was the last time I"d ever see her...

In the ambulance with her... I felt destroyed every time I looked down at her. I used to get lost every time I saw her. In that moment I had found her.. but not in the right way..

Waiting in the hospital room was hell. I kept believing it was my fault.. I was the one texting her.. so its all me...
and for these past 2 days.. I've"never forgiven myself..
and somehow I know I never will...

And these past days I have been sitting in my room eating ice cream while crying over Netflix.
 All my mates have called me asking what"s wrong.. but If I even mention her name.. I know I will burst into tears...
And that"s what people call "weak" in my school.. 

And now I have got to go into school.. and face everyone.. and somehow Isabel"s death has spread super fast..
It was even in the papers.. but I couldn't bare to look... 

I walk downstairs preparing myself for the day..
Isabel used to be the thing I thought about.. I"d think of her when I woke up.. and before I closed my eyes. She was always my last thought.. I used to love that.. But now I need to get her off my mind.. But my brain just won"t let me let her go..
I guess it"s not my brain"s fault..