One Fated encounter ✓

Trust - a luxury I can't afford!

Arjun's POV:

Damn it! Dammit! Damnit! What the hell are you doing Arjun? How F*&Ked up you are??? Just when I thought everything falling into place and prepared myself to tell her about me, how could things get screwed up this much? I don't even know this old man who is standing in front me.

"Fine Arjun!, looks like you are busy!", he smirked and said "huh, I will not eat up your private time, will meet when time comes", he winked at me shaking my hands.

Alex...I screamed his name internally. I couldn't blame him too as he suggested to be on wait here but I told him not to do so. I missed him badly now as I don't register details that are not necessary and Alex is my directory. I have no clue about this gentleman who just messed up my life right royally and have no luxury to think how and where this would unfold. If Alex would have been here, he would have taken care of this.

I have spent a week's time in hell not seeing her and waited for this day like anything. I pictured in my head how this day supposed to be and everything is now screwed up. I hated myself the whole of last week for not being able to see her because I hid my true identity from her.

I thought meeting her here is a well prepared plan and got the entire buffet hall booked but never expected that this could go so wrong. I think I have mastered the right way to do everything wrong!!!I was too afraid to tell her my background worried about the implications that can bring but now I felt it would have been better than the way it has blown out now.

I knew how exactly she must be feeling now; I have seen the pain the person would go through when someone breaks the trust. I felt horrible at the thought that she would not trust me again.

What if, what if she just walk away with full of rages, I wondered, how can I even build the trust that I had broken, will she ever believe my promise? Will she be able to hear my side of story?

Arjun, you lost your mind and told her "it's over" when she chose her friend and what do you think she would do now, my inner voice ridiculed me.

I started imagining weird things, will she just slap me and leave outraged or will she even bother to listen to my explanation or...will she just yell at me... I was horrified to even meet her. My brain stopped working literally and I was not able to think straight.

I was too frightened to press the elevator button. I have not scared for anything so far, but now it scared hell out of me, I was scared being hated by her, I have never went through this feeling, I went up preparing myself...She stood near the glass window looking at the sea and my heart was racing. I felt someone was choking me.

With difficulty in breathe, I called her out "Dimple", she turned to look at me and her eyes looked pain. Her innocent face which smiled at me in a loving way few minutes back flashed in front of me and now she looked completely different. I waited holding my breath for her reactions, but she remained quiet which increased my guilt even more.

"Dimple"...my words failed me, I could not say anything more.

"Did you know him?", she asked

I was not expecting that question and not sure how to respond to that..."Well...sort of", I searched for words

"Am hungry, should we start", she said without meeting my eyes and I felt a sharp pain in my heart.

Waitress served the starters and soups on the table.

I knew clearly that she was hurting herself inside but I just didn't know how to break the silence. I felt it would have been really nice if she yelled at me or cursed at me, but this silence of hers and trying to be normal...killed me nearly.