One Fated encounter ✓

Fear of losing you!

Arjun POV:

Damn! It's been a week already! Yes, it's been more than 7 days that I last spoke with her, Dimple...the last I called her Dimple was that afternoon...She was not bothered to call me or text me, she stood by what she said. Well, she has been the same since beginning. I felt I've have been living in a hell and I was constantly looking at my phone for messages from her. I've spent the last week anguished about whether I made the right decision or not.

I was sitting on the VIP lounge to board the flight back to my home country. Alex was looking at me like I have gone crazy and I won't be able to blame him for that, as he suffered a lot these 7 days staying with me. I lost on thoughts and jogged my memory back to my week stay in Belgium.

For the first two days, I worked like a mad man, trying to shift my focus on anything and everything but her. The more I wanted to avoid thinking about her, the more I thought about her. The moment I paused from whatever I was doing, she popped up immediately fascinatingly. She stayed in my head and grown inch by inch the last 7 days and I could not take her out and now she glued like a rock there. I missed her crazily, no...no...she was missing from me!

I felt a bit off as I was going aggressively from one feeling to another, in the hope that something would give some sort of solace...but failed terribly. Every night, Alex had to put up with my wailing and grumbling. He must have taken me as one blubbering fool.

Day 1:

Jeez! I knew that she was not bothered about me...

If you were not caring, then why bothered loving me...wait did she ever loved me?

Day 2:

Why in the world, this sucking time not moving...I just feel I should move the minute and hour hand

Well, I should not bother thinking about her...she is not worth me

Day 3:

You know what, I am fine...Perfectly fine without her

I'm sure she will call me anytime now, do you really think she would choose to leave me...

Day 4:

I'm the stupid fucking creature who created all these mess...

No...that Idiot lady was the one who was to blame...why did she even attend my call

Right, in fact I should not blame anyone, see now I knew this is going to make our relationship strong

Anyway, am going to enjoy this time all alone without her and am sure...she must be missing me too

Day 5:

That day when I saw her drenched in rain, she looked amazingly beautiful...that kiss...her beautiful smile, the tiny dent on her face...Dimple...When she said she believed me...I felt I was flying...Arrgh! Why am I thinking all that now

Dimple, please call me back...I promise I won't make you regret...please, please

Day 6:

This isn't fair!!!! Nothing really is fair!!! Why it's me always...I threw everything and created a mess out of my room

I was all Ok without her for last 27 years, she is just someone I knew for few months...why should I feel hopeless and awkward...why in the world am this desperate for love

I could feel my heart is breaking into pieces here...not sure how it's working...Alex, I doubt whether it's even functioning, can we get it checked.

I cried my heart out...I wanted all these to be dream...a sad dream that I wanted to wake up from

Day 7:

I am feeling sick, my joints are paining and abdomen is not good and my head feels like it's going to burst anytime soon...I don't want to attend any of these meetings...

I just don't want her to walk away from me...

She believed me blindfolded when she knew about Chitra, but I was the insolent jerk who treated her ruthlessly that too after I told her that I'm fine she being friends with that Arun

I'm an As*%$, I have absolutely no rights shouting at her...

I'm totally fine she calling me names, at least I wanted to hear her voice. What is wrong in her calling me names anyways? I deserve it

I'm perfectly good, she talking to anyone, but I can't afford to lose her...without her I felt am nothing. I was scared to call her, If she disconnects my call, I would not be able to do anything from here.

After going through the roller coaster emotions, I made my mind. Yes, It took me sometime to realize what I wanted. I figured it out that I lost my patience because, I tried to control her and that made me to react the way I reacted and I guess I have taken her for granted. I never thought she would walk away just like this.

I've never been scared of losing something in my entire life, but now I felt terrible at the thought that she would leave me. It scared the living shit out of me.

I feared that I would lose her..no..no...probably I lost her already. The thought killed me. Losing her is my biggest fear now, compared to that, she calling me names like King of Devil or having lunch with her friend is nothing. I made my mind to trust and love her unconditionally, but I can't let her go.

Yes, I love you Dimple...just the way you are!

"Boss, time to board", Alex called me out and I boarded the flight lost on thoughts again on how cruel I was when I shouted at her...I asked her "who the hell do you think you are?", I was sure those words would have hurt her badly and wondered how could I mend all of that.

Even if I had to say a million sorry, would it be enough to gain her love back? I was not sure. I was a nervous freak when my flight landed and was shocked to see a familiar figure across the line towards security checkpoint...As I tried registering the sight, my eyes didn't believe what I was seeing, it's just not one, two familiar faces who are laughing widely at each other. Holy shit!

Just when, I thought I have made peace with my mind, another problem came in rocket installing happily to slash down me.

The fear of losing her is now growing at a speed that I have no freaking control!!!