The Path to Victurri (UNDER HEAVY EDITING)

Breaking Ice

VPOV

I've  always been worried that Yuri would leave me for someone else. It scares me to think about that of course, but what could I do if he chose to leave me? I don't want to be that boyfriend. You know... the over obsessed one, that hits his lover, but won't let him/her leave.

I wouldn't hit Yuri for the world. 

I'm just glad that he takes me as his lover. I can only pray that he won't leave me. If he does.. I'll kill myself.

I know that probably seems unreasonable, but I even said so myself, 'skater's hearts are as fragile as glass.' I've learned to strengthen mine—it's more like ice now: sometimes very strong, but other times more breakable than glass.

YPOV

Have Victor and I switched places or something? He has always been the strong, confident skater; and I've always been the nervous crybaby. Now it's like I'm the strong one! 

I can't imagine how that happened.

He's been so sensitive, and clingy, recently too. If I even try to leave him for a minute, he'll throw a fit about it! It's like he's scared that I'm going to leave again. Like if he isn't next to me at all times, I'll run away. 

I guess that's exactly what I did though, and when I ran away last time, he was right next to me... and I left him...

Jesus I'm an a**hole...

If he had done that to me... I guess I wouldn't have any faith in him either. "..I'm sorry Victor." I said squeezing his hands gently.

He looked up at me, confused. "W-what do you mean?" Victor asked quietly. He eyes searched my face, worriedly.

I leaned back in the hospital chair and closed my eyes, "I-I've just been a jerk recently.. I'm sorry." 

VPOV

I sighed quietly. Honestly, I kind of thought that he was going to break up with me again.

"No you haven't. If anything, I've been rude; by following you around everywhere." I said looking down again, "I-if you don't w-want me around... just say so.. I don't want to play any games. I just need to know if you want me around." I said tears springing to my eyes. I'm prepared to get rejected by Yuri, I can't do anything if he does... I'll just be alone again.

I don't want to be alone anymore.. I-I'll do anything he wants I just don't want to be left alone. 

Tears started pouring out of my eyes, as I thought of those awful when months when Yuri hated me. They had gone by so slowly, each second away from him had felt like a knife being stabbed into my heart.

I had wanted to die.

Even thinking about it now, still makes me want to die. "V-Victor! How could you even say something like that!" He yelled moving closer to my face. I looked away though; I don't want to see the look of disappointment on Yuri's face. "... You don't believe that I'll stay.. do you? You think that any minute I'm going to up and leave you. I know that you wouldn't leave me, why can't you have faith that I won't leave again?" 

"B-because I'm not worth it! I'm not worth tears! I-I'm not worth loving! S-so why do you even try? It's... it's not like I haven't been left by someone I love before! I know what it feels like to hurt, to want to die. I-I'm just not sure if I know what it's like to be loved." I yelled, my voice cracking multiple times. I sobbed into my hands, as Yuri stared at me, shocked.

Hi guys! Sorry I haven't been updating as much.. and that the stories have been so short...

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A/N I don't own Yuri!!! On Ice. If I did, JJ would be dead, and episode 11 would have been very different. Also Chicken Nugget would be in a Yurio, Yuri, Victor love square thing... I guess he already is though..

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