The Path to Victurri (UNDER HEAVY EDITING)

Melting Ice

Victor's POV

I don't know how much more of this I can handle..

Yes, I love Yuri.. but.. I don't know if I can truly say that I'd live for him.. I've been so stressed out recently (a/n boi.. let Yuri sing to you then.. 😬) I-I just don't know if I can stand to be alive anymore..

Yuri's POV

How could Victor think that he doesn't deserve love?! He's the kindest, most caring person I've ever met, Victor deserves so much more than just love.. how does he not see that?

I tried to lay my hand over Victor's, but when I touched him, he flinched away from my touch. "V-Victor? Please.. I love you more than you can imagine.. w-why would you ever think that you don't deserve love?" I stuttered quietly.

He didn't even look up at me.

Victor's POV

I heard Yuri say something, but I couldn't make out the words.. I was thinking too hard.

The second I leave this place.. I'll end it. I don't want to live with this awful state of depression any longer.

~timey wimey skip skip brought to you by fangirls~

P.s. It's still Victor's POV

Finally! I'm out of that god awful hospital!! 

"Victor? Are you happy to be free from the hospital?" Yuri asked jokingly. He grabbed my hand gently, as we walked to the car. Of course Yuri helped with this crippling depression, but.. well I-it's just not enough.

I guess keeping me alive is going to be a harder job than Yuri could ever imagine.

~another time skip brought to you by: JJ!! (Like eight hours)~

Still Victor's POV

I looked down at the cold water below the bridge emotionlessly. Several thoughts ran through my head, as I pondered if I should jump, and end it all now: well at least I wouldn't have any more depression. But.. Yuri has done so much for me.. do I even want to end it like this? What if I survive the jump? Will Yuri hate me if I fail at committing suicied? If Yuri ever hates me, I will find a better way to die.. well better meaning more efficient... and painful.

I snapped back to reality as I felt cold tears slip, one by one, down my face. Even when I was about to end it all, I still didn't want for Yuri to hate me.

I quickly pulled out a small scrap of paper, and a pencil, that I had kept in my pocket so I could quickly write down my will, and an extra note for Yuri. When I was done, I stabbed the pencil through the letters, and secured them in the ground.

I have no more things that I need to do..then I looked down at my hand and saw my engagement ring. Tears started falling down my face again, as I thought of Yuri; he would be alone at night, until he found another man. Yuri would forget all about me, and I would just be some person that he had known long ago.

I have now made my choice; I'm going to jump.

HAHAHAHAHA!!! Cliffhanger... oh god I'm going to get SO MUCH HATE!!! 

I'm sorry.. please don't kill me.. 😭😜

Now the question is, Will Victor survive the jump? Hehe come back later to find out.

A/N I don't own any of the Yuri!!! On Ice characters.. 😭😭😭