Have you ever held someone in your arms - not knowing whether this might just be your last embrace with them?
Have you ever felt your heart tear in two, thinking that the person who holds you right now might just turn away and leave you where you stand, without a backwards glance?
I have....
Lord, how I question my self every night since that day. Going over every simple detail of the past 7 months - wondering where it all went wrong. Where did that feeling and adoration go? And why is it now that he has found another and I'm still thinking over every word we shared since our relationship started, to where it ended with me crying on the pavement.
Yes, Love is a funny thing that can be so tough to find but then can be lost so easily. I have had my fair share of lovers but this was the true man I loved, The one I fought for and the one I watched walk away even though I loved him still so much - maybe that's why I agreed to turn up to his 'Surprise 21st Birthday party' - Because I still loved him and because I hopelessly thought there maybe still a chance for us.
But I knew I was wrong from the minute I walked into the public house, from the moment I watched his surprised face take in the people that shouted 'Happy Birthday' to him and then our eyes met and I saw the sadness in them... No. The pity in them - that I hadn't moved on.
Of course, it only got worse when our best friend rushed forward and kissed him passionately on the lips and nearly everyone turned to eye my reaction, to smirk at my pain.
Love. It's a fools game.
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It's been a month now - Since his Birthday and Since I moved to California in which I'm attending college to study Journalism.
I've made plenty of friends but I never dated - You could say I've had enough of the love game and that moving away was my statement to the world for a fresh start - NU UH! More like running away from all that I knew!!
"Hey~ Wake up!!" I felt the bed dip, my horrible room mate was bouncing on it causing it to shake and successfully wake me up.
"Go away Seth!" I growled, grabbing my pillow and batting him with it - which made him squeal like a girl, retreating off my bed. Ah, Sleep~ But again, of course, that didn't last long.
"Come on, Tristen!! Get up~" he whined, once again climbing on my bed and bouncing.
"If you don't LEAVE ME alone, then I will make it so you can never have children" I threatened but this only made Seth laugh - ugh! Why don't people take me seriously when I threaten them?
Suddenly the bouncing stopped and I thought he'd given up till I felt his dead weight drop on top of me, causing the air to whoosh out of my lungs.
"Jesus Christ Seth!!" I hissed as Seth giggled, crawling over me so he now straddling my waist. Ah the tough thing about Not falling in love, Well it's hard when your room mate looks like a god and worse when he knows it.
"Jesus an't here right now... but I'm sure I'll do as a replacement" he hummed, leaning down so his lips hovered inches away from my own. I groaned - Of course I had to be roomed with this arse! This sexy blond, emerald green eyed douche with an incredible body that he just loved to flaunt to me - since he was currently wearing no shirt and only a pair of tight black jeans - for F*ucks sakes.
"Seth~ I'll ask nicely then I'll kick your ass - Get off" Having him this close was causing my heart to hammer uncontrollably in my chest... oh did I forget to mention I have a crush on him? and that he knew I had a crush on him? Yup! My life officially sucks... AGAIN.
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Fools Game: Love (BoyxBoy)
RomansaTristen is a broken hearted 19 year old who's moved countries to get away from his past love but fate had him room with a boy named Seth who has awakened old painful feelings. A comical and romantic yet painful adventure awaits Tristen as he strugg...