It was exactly how I imagined it to be - Seth and mine's first kiss, soft, warm and wonderful and I fell right into it, giving in to him for a few seconds before I felt his lips part my own and his tongue slid in, caressing my tongue. My eyes wiped open at the action, I'd shut them without thinking, had I really been that into it!? Was I that into the kiss to realize that what I was doing - What WE were doing, was wrong!! I couldn't fall for this - this PLAYER!!! Oh no no no no no!!
I turned my head away quickly, my cheeks ablaze and my heart thudding almost painfully in my chest, a reminder of what would happen if I fell for Seth. If I admitted my crush to my self, my feelings for him... I knew what would happen - I'd get hurt.
"S-Seth" my voice sounded breathless and unsteady... Crap. "L-let go of me" I whispered, closing my eyes and holding back tears that stung my eyes.
It hurt to push him away, just like it hurt to watch Jake walk away or suck Anthony's face off but I knew it would hurt more if I gave in and allowed to be hurt. After all, Seth would break my heart without a second thought... he'd done it before - I'd seen him do it before to both boys and girls, but I wasn't going to let it happen to me.
Seth seemed to have selective hearing or something because he didn't let go. IN FACT, he turned with me in his arms and threw me down onto my bed. I let out a small 'oof', turning over just in time to have Seth crawl over me and dip his head down into my neck - again. I tried to push him off but my weakling arms didn't even seem to phase him and he simply grabbed my hands in his and pinned them above my head.
Oh lordy lordy! My eyes were wide as I stared up at Seth, his beautiful green eyes looked mischievous and his teasing smile now scared me. What was he thinking!? Shit! Why wasn't I speaking! Come on Tristen! Wake up! Don't fall for this stupid game again!!
"S-Seth! St-Stop!!" I squeaked out, feeling him push my legs apart and lean down between them and ever so slowly grind against me - not good! NOT GOOD!!!
"Come on Tristen~ I know you like me" he hummed in my ear but I found my self shaking my head, biting my bottom lip to avoid a groan from escaping my lips.
"N-no Seth... P-please, S-Stop" I closed my eyes, squeezing them shut and turning my head away from him. I didn't want him to see me cry, to see me even weaker then just physical strength... I just couldn't.
He seemed to pause and then sigh, moving off me slowly but as soon as I felt his grip loosen, I pulled away from him and dashed for the door, opening it and then closing it firmly shut behind me.
Pulse pounding in my ears, breathing completely unstable - like I'd run a marathon and I swear I was going to throw up or something.
How could I have been so stupid!? Why did I kiss him back!? Why did I allow him to take advantage of me!?... Well not completely but still I kissed back!! How STUPID!! STUPID STUPID STUPID!! I paused for a moment, fingers touching my lips softly, the warm tingling sensation was still there from our kiss... but I was so STUPID!... Worse, I'd enjoyed.
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Okay Second Chapter up and you'll have to forgive me for shortness and well... weirdness of this chapter - I know it doesn't lead anywhere but I will be getting somewhere soon!!
I have a horrible headache, Hense why this chapter is so rubbish... but it will get better soon!! I promise!!
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Fools Game: Love (BoyxBoy)
RomansaTristen is a broken hearted 19 year old who's moved countries to get away from his past love but fate had him room with a boy named Seth who has awakened old painful feelings. A comical and romantic yet painful adventure awaits Tristen as he strugg...
