Madelyn’s POV
I had no idea where to go after I pulled out of the driveway. I drove around for a little while. Somehow I ended up in Selena’s driveway. I just sat in the car and cried until I heard someone tapping on my window.
“Hey, you okay?” Nick asked when I opened the door.
“No.” I admitted. “Is Selena here?”
“She’s still in bed, but you can go on up.” I didn’t even ask why she was still in bed at three in the afternoon.
I kicked off my shoes by the front door and hurried to their bedroom. I knocked on the door and peeked my head in. Selena’s head popped up out of the mess of blankets and pillows.
“Maddie? What’s wrong?” Selena asked when she saw my red face, swollen from crying. “Come here.” She patted the bed next to her.
I climbed into bed next to her Selena. She didn’t look too good either, but she let me vent to her.
“Tell me what’s wrong. Is it Justin? The kids?”
“I’m pregnant.” I cried, more tears began to flow.
“Maddie, why is that making you cry?” She rubbed my back, trying to calm me down.
“I don’t want another baby, Selena. I can’t have four kids. Justin and I have been arguing about it for months. We have the perfect family right now, I don’t know why he would want to change that. But now, I’m pregnant. And I feel trapped. Like there’s no way out of this one.” I sobbed.
“Well you’re not going to be in it alone. I’m pregnant, too.” She was smiling, almost giddy. “That’s why I am in bed. I have been sicker than a dog.” I was happy for her. She was only on baby number two. But this was my fourth, and that was too many kids.
“Oh Maddie. Is a fourth baby really going to be that bad?” She wrapped her arms around me. “It’s going to be so stinking cute, just like the other three.”
“It is.” I cried on her shoulder. “I don’t want to have another baby. I want to do something else with my life besides be a mom. I thought I would love being a stay at home mom, but it’s driving me crazy. And now, if I can’t run, I really am going to go crazy. Running is what keeps me sane. It’s an hour I get away from Justin and the kids.”
“You want a job? We can find you a job! Let me make some calls!”
“I don’t know what I want.” I sighed heavily. “But I know I don’t want this baby.”
Justin’s POV
After Madelyn stormed out of the house I loaded the kids into the car and drove around looking for her. First I drove to Ashley and Ryan’s, but she wasn’t there. I checked my Mom’s, but her car wasn’t anywhere to be seen. I checked Paige’s dorm parking lot with no success.
I started to drive home, and on my way I passed Selena’s. I saw her car in the driveway. I breathed a huge sigh of relief. I considered stopping, but I knew that would probably irritate her more. Selena would keep her from doing anything irrational. Instead, I put my faith into Selena.
The kids all fell asleep on our little drive. I carried them inside and put all three of them into their beds. I was thankful they were asleep. My emotions couldn’t handle this and I didn’t want them to see me crying.
I laid down on our bed and the tears started to flow. As much as I wanted another baby, I didn’t want to risk my marriage over it. I hadn’t been there ten minutes when Selena called.
“Hello?” I answered quickly.
“Hey Justin, I just wanted to let you know that Madelyn is here.”
“How is she?”
“Pretty bad. She hasn’t stopped crying since she got here. She finally cried herself to sleep, so maybe she will be better when she wakes up.”
“I doubt it.” I sighed. “She really didn’t want another baby.”
“I know. She’s made that pretty obvious. I just wanted you to know she’s here.”
“Well thanks for calling, Sel. Send her home when she’s ready, okay?”
“I will.”
Madelyn’s POV
I woke up in Selena and Nick’s bed. It was dark outside. I had no idea how long I had slept, but I could feel my blood sugar had plummeted. I had an awful headache and I was super nauseous. My hands were shaking.
“Hey sleepy head, you should probably eat something. You’ve been out for five hours.” Selena handed me a cup of apple juice. I sighed. Justin never let me nap for that long because my blood sugar could get so out of whack. But the apple juice helped. I immediately began to feel better.
“How are you feeling?”
“I feel horrible.” I sighed. “I am officially the world’s worst mother.”
“Maddie, don’t say that. You are the best mom I know!”
“What kind of mother am I if I can sit here and tell you I don’t want this baby I am already pregnant with? It’s not like this is our first unplanned pregnancy. But this is the first one that I would actually consider ending. How can I be a good mother if I can say that? I didn’t even feel that way when I was nineteen and pregnant!” I started to cry again, and then realized Selena was staring at me. It wasn’t until then I realized what I had said.
“Did you just say you were pregnant when you were nineteen?” She looked shocked.
“Yeah. It ended in a miscarriage a couple of weeks after we found out.”
“Oh my gosh, sweetie.” She pulled me into a hug and let me cry on her shoulder. “I am so sorry. I had no idea.”
“To this day, Pattie is the only one who knows. She figured it out when I showed up on their doorstep looking depressed and anorexic. After it happened, I stopped eating and talking. I basically shut down.”
“I’m so sorry.”
“You know, the only thing that kept me from committing suicide that time was Justin. It would’ve created a huge media frenzy. He would have been lost. But now, things are different. He won’t ever forgive me if I have an abortion. But I can’t have this baby, Selena.” I let my heart pour out before I realized what I was saying.
Her eyes got huge. I couldn’t believe I had just said that to her. Now she was looking at me like I was completely suicidal. And, I wasn’t. But nothing I could say could change her mind now.
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Overboard: Somebody to Love #4
FanficJustin and Madelyn have been through a lot already. At just twenty-six years old, they've conquered marriage and parenthood. Their relationship has always been strong-- up until now, that is. Will they be able to make it through their biggest hurdle...
