My Other Half

Contrition

Chapter 21: Contrition

a/n: hey guys, it's been such a long time since writing! i'm glad to be back. since it's summer, i should have more time to update/create more stories. glad i still have my readers!
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Levi's POV

I wake up to what feels like my heart ripping itself into halves. I'm left disoriented for a minute, taking in my surroundings and last night's events. Slowly, my memories recollect themselves.

Eren.

Fuck, Eren. The fight, the yelling and name calling, the insults.

A new feeling fills me; I am suddenly bloated with anger and sadness and regret. But what is this feeling?

(a/n: hint hint, the title of the chapter)

I don't know where I am. It seems like these days I never know what's what. I look around, and see I fell asleep on a park bench. Gross.

The next thing I noticed is the lack of feeling in my body. I'm shivering, and can't feel my hands or legs.

I felt as if I was paralyzed, most likely to die on the bench. All because of a damn fight.

I felt like crying, which any normal human would feel. However, my face was dry, as I stared into the empty space of my surroundings.

I felt shitty and useless. But it wasn't just because of mine and Eren's fight, it was everything else going on within this time of my life.

I've lost hope for school and myself. No one is who they seem to be. I feel lost, and I'm trying to find the end of the path, but I don't even have a map. I have no guide, no compass, and destroyed my last bit of hope and guidance.

I felt a gentle mist brush against my face. I heard the birds sing a joyful song, and the wind blowing through the trees. I heard the distant spring, water rushing from one place to another. And I heard a voice inside myself.

As if listening to nature cleared the confusion, I now knew what I had to do.

This bench I was fixed to brought me joy, and comfort. I didn't want to leave. Maybe I could live on this bench and avoid my problems forever.

Fix what's bothering you. You have a clear sight in front of you.

What's the point when you could lay down, and listen to the rhythm of nature?

But I didn't get to decide. Suddenly, I felt something on me, and I lost my consciousness.

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Erens POV

Fighting. Why do I always end up in a fight? It's like someone or something always has to be putting me down. Why can't I have a neutral state? Just for once, please.

Could I have said something differently? I could retrace all of my steps, pinpoint where I went wrong, and keep it in mind for next time.

I shouldn't worry, Levi and I are always up and down. We always disagree. But it doesn't make us love each other any less.

For fucks sake, we're getting married soon! Things won't end because some meaningless banter.

What was the fight even about? What was last night even about? Where is Levi now? What happened to Levi? Is he okay?

I heard my mom walk into the kitchen. Everything looked fine, except for the missing bowl in the cupboard. If she had heard us fighting, she would've said something to me by now, right?