Too Much To Tell - Markimash

Chapter 8

After the film, we took all my cases up to the spare room and I just got right into bed. I was tired from the jet lag, and it was about 12, after me and Aaron had stayed up a little longer eating pizza and tweeting that markimash was re-united. I smiled when I went to sleep. The bed and room smelled of Aaron, so I felt calm, and like I belonged.

In the morning I woke around 9am, and checked my phone. I rolled over in the sheets and browsed through tweets. I did that for about half an hour before I got a little bored. I didn't want to wake up Aaron if he was still asleep, so I thought I'd just get dressed instead. I went over to my first case and pulled out some jeans, a t-shirt and a zipper hoodie.

I thought I may as well set my computer up too, there was an empty desk where I put the monitor and keyboard, and everything else went on the floor. I went and opened the curtains, it was beautiful. This was the first time I'd been to England, and I loved it. I smiled and opened the bedroom door. I wonder where Jess was, maybe she was at home going to college or something. I padded down the stairs softly, making sure to make as little noise as possible. I didn't really know where I was so I had to guess which door led to the kitchen.

I picked the wrong one and went into the lounge, woops. I then picked the right one and got myself a glass of water. I had to look in quite a few cupboards to actually find the glasses. It was about 10:30am, and I texted Aaron asking if he was awake. There was a reply;

yami: yeah, hang on, I'll be about 10 minutes x

I thought it would be nice if I brought something up for him, so I made a cup of tea and went upstairs with it. I went into his room and saw him lying there, with the sheets covering up to his chest. "Hey Mark!" He said, turning to look at me. "I brought you a cup of tea" I stated, lifting the mug up so he could see. "Aww you shouldn't have" He said, "Oh it's okay, I thought it would be a nice thing to do." I replied, and then walked over to his bedside table to put the mug down. "Did you sleep okay?" Aaron asked, "Yeah, perfectly" I said. "Pass me that dressing gown will you?" Aaron asked, pointing to a dressing gown that was hung up on the back of his door.

I walked over and pulled it off the hook, I handed it to him, and he lifted himself out of bed. "cheers" He thanked me. He was only wearing boxers when he got out of bed, and I felt a little flushed and embarrassed, but I didn't show it, I just sort of looked away. That could've been so awkward, it was just sort of there, I couldn't help but look, I knew I shouldn't think about it but Aaron was all I thought about anyway.

When Aaron had his dressing gown on, we went downstairs to the living room. "So where's Jess?" I asked, "well, she's at college for another week but then she'll be coming back here to stay for 3 weeks" He replied. That meant Jess and Aaron would be here while I was here, that made me feel a little disheartened. "Oh right, you must miss her a lot then" I said, "Yeah" Aaron muttered and stared out the window. "Anyway," Aaron interrupted, "what do you want for breakfast?" He smiled. "Urm what have you got?" I asked. "Let's have a proper English breakfast" He stated, then leapt out of the chair to go into the kitchen.

I followed him in and we got out some frying pans and plates. Aaron fried some eggs, bacon, and put beans and sausages on the plate. I'd never had an English breakfast beforeand and when I tasted it, it was awesome. "I could get used to this!" I laughed. "So what do you wanna do today?" Aaron asked me, "We could do whatever you want, like shopping, go see a movie, anything" He offered. "I don't really know, I'll do whatever suits you, I really don't mind" I replied politely, I didn't want to affect his normal routine, so I was happy to go with whatever. "Are you sure you don't want to do anything?" "Nahh I'm okay" I said.

Aaron suggested we could just stay at home if I was tired and I did feel tired, so I spent the rest of the day making videos. Aaron went to the shops at some point and got some food, but other than that we didn't go anywhere. For dinner Aaron cooked some pasta, which was lovely. I thought about how it would be if we were together, Aaron would cook, and he could teach me, and it would be perfect. I smiled while I was eating just thinking about it. "What are you smiling about?" Aaron asked, "Oh, nothing" I lied. I hoped deep down in my heart that one day it would happen, just like that.

In the late evening me and Aaron watched some British tv, and it made me laugh, it was so different to American tv. I liked watching the tv with Aaron, because he was focused on the tv, so he wouldn't notice if I stared at him. Staring at him made me happier, I loved watching his smile and watching the way his eyes searched the screen. I found myself wanting to take his face and just kiss it, until the end of the world, but it was stupid and pathetic.

I sighed, "I'm just gonna go to the toilet" I said, then lifted myself off the sofa, and went upstairs to the upstairs bathroom. I didn't really need the toilet, I just needed a little cry. A few tears slipped out of my eyes, I took my glasses off and brushed the tears away briskly. "Stay calm Mark, you're okay" I whispered to myself, as I took deep breaths, I couldn't let Aaron see me cry. After about 10 minutes, I felt ready to go back downstairs.

"Sorry I took so long" I apologised when I came back into the living room, "Oh that's okay, are you alright Mark?" He asked almost suspiciously, "yeah, yeah I'm fine" I lied, and smiled, so he wouldn't ask anymore questions. I sat back down next to Aaron and my heart had sunk. Spending time with Aaron made me so happy, he was the reason I could keep going, but at the same time, he broke my heart, and crushed me in the palms of his hands.