Too Much To Tell - Markimash

Chapter 17

By the time we had walked back to mine, I was so happy, the night had been perfect, and I didn't want to end it. Aaron walked me right up to the door, and let go of my hand, "well, I'll see you tomorrow then? I'll text you." he said, and negan turning away, "no" I said, and pulled his shoulder back round, "stay with me. Please?" I asked, and he smiled, "thanks". We walked in, and it was 11pm, we'd been out longer than I thought. "Do you wanna just settle down, I'm really tired, how are you doing?" I asked him, slipping my shoes off. "I'm happy to settle down too, I'm a little jetlagged to be honest." so that was that.

I debated heavily in my mind whether I should ask him to stay in the spare bedroom, or whether to let him come into my double bed with me. I wanted him to come into the double bed, but I didn't know if that would be awkward or uncomfortable. I pushed myself, and asked him, "would you wanna stay in my bed with me?" I asked, and I was nervous for the reply, was I being too forward? "I'd love to." he said and I took his hand and lead him into my room. I was so happy he'd said yes, and I felt all this new love surging through me, like I was falling in love with him a second time, only this time, he was here in the flesh.

I slept in my normal sweat pants, but Aaron didn't have anything, so he just slept in his boxers. In the night I didn't sleep much, I felt a little paranoid about disturbing Aaron. I did fall asleep though, and when I woke up, Aaron wasn't in the bed anymore. Where had he gone? I was a little worried and disappointed that he might have left, I didn't really get to say thanks, so I got up, and pulled on my dressing gown. I padded downstairs and walked into the kitchen. Aaron was sat drinking some tea, my heart leaped and I felt a lot happier he was still here. I wanted to do this every morning, wake up to him, like as though we were living together, maybe one day. I smiled and he stood up and walked over to me.

"Hey." he said and wrapped his arms around me, I tentatively hugged back, it was a weird feeling, but once I was holding him too, I felt relaxed, and I felt so calm. He broke away, and looked down a little, "I have to leave today" he said, and I knew it couldn't be stopped, "okay" was the only word I could come out with, even though I had so much more to say. "How are we gonna sort this out Mark?" he said desperately, and I shook my head, "I don't know, I could move to the UK, I was moving to LA anyway, it's just a few extra hours" I said, I was willing to sacrifice all I had to love him as much as I could, and if it meant moving to the other side of the world then I guess I would have to. "No." he said firmly, and sat down on my bar stool.

"You've already done more than enough for me, and now I finally realise that I love you, I need to make it up to you." he said, finishing with a sigh. I stayed silent for a while, "I want to move to LA with you." he said, and I knew he meant it. It was a lot to take in, "are you sure? You don't have to leave all that behind you know" I said, but he disagreed, "I want to move with you Mark, because you're worth more than anything to me." I was heartened. "You'd do that for me?" I asked in disbelief, "yes Mark." he said, and looked me in the eyes. I didn't say anything, but I walked over held his hand, and kissed him. "Thank you." I said against his skin.

Aaron left a little after, and I felt sad when he left. It would take a few months before we could live together properly, and I knew in the months apart it would make my heart ache. I was going to drop him off at the airport though, so I would be able to say goodbye to him then. While I was on my own, I had time to think about our date, did it mean we were officially going out? Did it mean we were a couple? I felt giddy, and wanted to tell all my subscribers and friends, but I knew I couldn't do that without asking Aaron. I think it was the first time in my entire life I could happily say I had a boyfriend, I guess I should tell Bob and Wade. I phoned them both one after the other, and told them to keep it fairly quiet, but they both thought it was cute and said their congratulations.

Aaron came back a month later and we sorted a lot out, we also spoke about letting it out to everyone, he'd told Jess, and she was happy for us, but I think the internet would be less happy. I was moving to LA in 3 months, but Aaron would have to deal with a lot of things back home before he could come with me. More than anything though, I was happy. The time we spent together would be us just being close to eachother, holding hands, holding eachother at every oppertunity because we knew the pain of distance.

"Hey what do you wanna do tonight?" I asked Aaron, who was cooking in the kitchen. This was what I once dreamed about, him cooking and us being like a proper couple. "Oh I don't mind" he said, chopping potatoes. I felt mesmerised by the way his hands made cooking seem like an art, and I wanted to kiss them. "How about a cuddle in bed with a 11 hour Lord of the Rings marathon?" I suggested with a smile and he agreed, I loved those films. That night when we were watching, we only had our pajama bottoms on. He was tracing his fingertips up and down my chest while he watched the screen. When the first film finished, I kissed him lustfully, and he kissed back. I wasn't sure if he was ready to do anything, because to be honest, I didn't feel ready either, so I would let Aaron take the first move if he wanted to.

He didn't after a while, and I was quite glad, so our lips touched until we were close to falling asleep, we didn't even get halfway through the marathon, and I smiled at the thought. I think that was the most amount of time we've spent together without talking. I didn't remember much else from that evening, but I know he fell asleep on my arm because I had to wrench it from beneath him. We didn't even get to the second film.

~~ A/N ~~I'm really sorry about not uploading :-( I was in london for a whole weekend for the divergent premiere and I didn't feel ready to upload the chapter but here it is. This is basically the last chapter, but the epilogue kind of thing will be uploaded tomorrow. I don't want to drag the fanfic ending out because sometimes that ruins stories, MORE IMPORTANTLY MARKIMASH MEETING FOR THE FIRST TIME IN LIKE 2 WEEKS I SCREAMED