Too Much To Tell - Markimash

Chapter 10

Me and Aaron were walking to the party at around 9pm, and it was 7pm, so I had about 2 hours before we were leaving. Aaron had a shower before we left so I took that oppertunity to phone Bob and have a chat about events that had happened while I had been in the UK. I phoned him up and waited for a reply, it took a couple of rings but eventually Bob answered. I was sat at the end of the bed, swinging my feet around.

"Oh hey Mark, how are ya?" Bob greeted, "Urm, not too bad" I replied, "has something bad happened?" he asked, "well, I cried, but I made sure Aaron didn't notice, but I think he's noticed something's up, he's asked me if I'm okay a couple of times" "at least you know he cares about you, how was eurogamer?" Bob asked, "really fun actually, somebody gave me a present for you, and there's one for Wade too" "aww omg that's so nice" We talked a little more, then I heard the shower turn off and I didn't want Aaron to hear me on the phone so we said goodbye and I put the phone down. It was a 20 minute conversation, so it was pretty decent.

I still felt really nervous about the party. I was just going in my hoodie and jeans, and Aaron was going in a t-shirt. Aaron looked so perfect in his shirt, I sighed heavily, I wish I had him as my own. "Are you ready to go?" Aaron asked at around 7, "yep" I said. I'd come to the conclusion that the party wouldn't be too bad, because there would be loud music and alcohol and that was always fun. I don't think I'd drink that much though, I hated feeling hungover, and if I was drunk I might reveal something I might regret.

We left about 7:10, and walked to his friends house. As soon as we got there, the music was loud, and it was quite crowded. Aaron stayed with me for the first couple of hours, then he took me into the garden where it was quieter. "Listen Mark, is it okay if I go off on my own for a bit?" "Aaron please don't leave me please" I started to panic, all that went through my mind was what if I was alone. Aaron looked at me disapprovingly, I knew he'd been drinking, he was completely different. "Just stop Mark you'll be fine" he said, then walked off back into the house. "Wait no-" I said after him but he'd already gone.

Aaron was a prick when he was drunk I thought bitterly. I walked back into the house, and tried to look for Aaron. Suddenly the music, darkness, and all the people didn't seem so fun anymore, and it sort of seemed to loom over me. My breaths became short as I pushed past people to get to the living room. I saw Aaron and he was laughing with friends, I decided to wait in the corner for him until he woud be ready to go home. I had a can of beer and just held it, for about an hour while Aaron danced. Every now and again, he kept looking at me and making eye contact, he looked angry.

Eventually, he walked over to me and grabbed my jumper arm. He pulled me through the crowd and out the front door. He let go as soon as we were outside. He started walking down the drive way to the street, "Aaron where are you going?" I said after him, "Come with me I want to talk" He said back, stopping on the path. I followed him, and stood a couple of metres away. The music was still quite loud in the street, and no one else was outside, we were alone.

"Why are you so miserable? Why can't you just have a good time?" Aaron asked bitterly, I was shocked, and didn't know how to reply, "Well I-" Aaron interrupted me, "Why can't you just find somebody you like and just have some fun with them?" I knew what he meant by that, "It's not as easy as that though is it" I said quietly, "Why not? Just let go for once!" He took another gulp from his beer. "Stop drinking it makes you angry" I said, this conversation was making me angry, and it was coming out in the way I spoke. "Is it because you love someone!?" Aaron almost shouted, like he was shocked.

"Look just leave it" I muttered angrily, turning to walk away. Aaron pulled my shoulder round and looked at me, "Why don't you just move on? Then maybe you'd actually enjoy yourself sometime" Aaron said sarcastically. I was getting so angry and upset at this argument. I knew it wasn't Aaron's fault, alcohol does strange things to people, but it was hurting me, and I knew I was going to go mental at him in a minute. "Aaron stop it. I don't want to talk about it." I said firmly.

"Oh so you're embarrassed" Aaron said suggestively, he was stumbling around, how much had he drunk. "We need to get you home, you might be ill" I said, going to support his shoulder. He pushed me away, and I felt a pain in my chest, like Aaron had ripped my heart out. "Aaron" I said, "do you know why I'm sad all the time? Do you know why I'm heartbroken? Do you know why I'm embarrassed about the person I love?" I was basically shouting now. "No, fucking enlighten me" Aaron shouted, throwing his arms up in desperation.

"Because-" I broke off, took a deep breath and started again, but quietly, "because I love you." I saw Aaron's face drop, he backed away. "Wait Aaro-" I stared after him, I felt faint, I started to cry and it didn't know what I could do. My vision was blurry through tears, but I saw Aaron's figure walk off quickly. "Please.." I whispered after him, then fell to my knees. What had I done?

~~ A/N ~~
Hey guys I thought you could help me out here because I feel like I need to name the fanfic but I'm so bad at names so if anyone has a name suggestion (literally it could be penis butts for all I care) then please comment with it because I really need help. Thanks again!♡