Too Much To Tell - Markimash

Chapter 16

I walked in my living room, where I used to make my videos before my other setup, and looked at Aaron sat on my sofa. "When did you get here?" I asked, "It doesn't matter" he muttered, "but where are you staying?" I asked a different quetion, I was in shock and really couldn't believe he was actually here. "Mark will you just sit down, we have to talk" he said sternly and I sat down at the other end of the sofa. My heart was pounding through nerves and my love for him. Aaron looked at me right in the eyes, "I want you to listen to me, from start to finish, okay?" he said and I nodded.

"Mark" he sighed, "when you told me you loved me, I didn't run off because I hated you, I ran off because I was shocked and embarrassed, and I shouldn't have done it and I'm so sorry. I can't change what I did, but I know I hurt you." his eyes flashed with guilt while mine flashed with pain. "I then broke up with Jess because I realised I'd never really loved her, and I kissed you, well I kissed you because I wanted to see how it felt." He stopped and broke eye contact, fiddling with his hands. Aaron then continued, "I had to know how it felt because I needed to see if it felt right, because I thought maybe there was something more than friendship between us. But jesus christ Mark, I've never felt something more right, I fucking love you. I don't know what else to say."

I took it all in for a second, and breathed out heavily. Then I broke down. All the stress and depression from the past months built up and my body chose this time to cry. Aaron's frown turned into a dejected look, and he scooted to closer to me. "I'm so sorry for everything I've done to you, and the way I made you feel, I'm so sorry." he kept apologising, but I couldn't say anything through the tears that ran from my eyes. I wiped them away with the palm of my hands, "I don't understand, you weren't mocking me?" I questioned, I didn't believe him, all this seemed to good to be true, "no Mark, I'm scared too you know, I've never loved a guy, and well, you're the first" he admitted, and for the first time, I saw truth in his eyes. "I came here for something else too" he said, and I listened, "I'm asking you on a date" he said bluntly. "uhh" I hadn't thought of a reply and Aaron interrupted me, "I want to do this properly, I'll pick you up tomorrow at 7pm" he said, and I stopped crying. Aaron got up to leave, and I grabbed his arm, "you really love me?", "yes Mark, and I'll do whatever it takes to prove that" and with that he walked out.

That night I slept really well, but I found myself panicking in the morning. I had to phone Bob, and Wade. It was all happening, everything I've ever wanted. I smiled, and called them into a group chat on skype. I told them and they were pretty happy for me, the only thing bothering me right now was what would I wear and where were we going? I was actually pretty nervous, because I'd never ever been on a date with a guy before, and I'd never even been on a date with someone who I really loved, like Aaron. I had a shower and searched through my closet for a shirt I could wear. I didn't really want to be too formal, but I wanted to look nice.

I recorded a couple of videos before I actually got dressed, I was still in my dressing gown form the shower. By then it was about 5. 2 hours to go. I felt like I needed to clear my head a little, so I pulled on some jeans and a jumper and went for a walk. I knew I had to stay calm tonight, but what if we kissed again, I felt warmth surge through me thinking about it. Holy crap I wanted to kiss him again. I went home after about half an hour, and tried to keep myself calm by watching tv, but nothing could stop my heart racing. I didn't even know where we were going? When the hell did Aaron even get here? I was really confused, I basically had no idea what was going on.

I was ready and waiting when Aaron came to my door, and before I opened it, I ran my hands through my hair one last time and took some deep breaths. As soon as I opened the door, Aaron pulled me into a tight hug. "I'm sorry I couldn't hold it off for any longer, we haven't hugged in so long." he said as he pulled away. I felt sick in my stomach, I felt really uncomfortable, like I wasn't ready, I'd never done anything serious with someone I really loved. "Yeah" was the only reply I could formulate, and then I stepped out my front door. Aaron was wearing a shirt and jeans, but had the sleeves rolled up, so it wasn't too smart, and I just wore a shirt and jeans too. As me and Aaron walked down my pathway, he took my hand in his, and we looked at eachother, and he smiled at me. It was as if we didn't need to say anything, because we knew that we loved eachother.

We didn't drive anywhere, Aaron walked me into town, and took me to a little restaurant on the corner. While we were walking there, people had given us some dirty looks, but some people had smiled, and for the first time, I was proud to be who I was. "How did you find this nice little place?" I asked, when we sat down, "oh I just asked Wade for some good places to eat" he replied, "so Wade knew you were coming?" I asked, a little taken-back at how much Aaron had cared about this. "Yeah" he laughed, "I couldn't have done all this without them".

The date made me feel like this was love, and when we had finished dinner, we sat, looking into eachother's eyes. He was beautiful, like the moon; despite his craters and flaws, he still shone the brightest in the darkest of nights. His laugh was electric, jolting my heart, and his smile lightened my heart. While Aaron looked at me, he pulled my hand from under the table, lifted round to the top of the table, and twined our fingers together. Our hands were folded together on the tabletop, and for the first time, I felt lust towards Aaron, and I wanted him there and then. But instead, I leant in, lifted his chin with my free hand, and we kissed.

This kiss felt like the first proper kiss, I had initiated it, and Aaron had responded, his lips parted slightly, and I slipped my tongue in. I pulled back, not letting it go any further, "not here" I whispered, glancing around the room, "it's a bloody restaurant!" I joked and he laughed. "I love you Mark" he said, "please don't forget that" he said, and I felt my body warm. "I promise" I said. We ordered the bill to come and half an hour later we were walking back in the dark. Aaron took my hand, and I took him round a long way, through a park. It was deserted, and the stars and moon lit the path.

We stopped walking and I stared up at the sky. I felt Aaron squeeze my hand a little tighter, and I turned to face him, held his other hand, and kissed him again.

~~ A/N ~~So this fanfic is coming to an end really really soon, and I don't think I've written that well but thanks anyway, the final chapters are coming!:-)x