The boy next door (Calum Hood fic)

Chapter 12

I sat there looking disillusioned, at the paper. The past few days I've been spending most of days with Calum, at school since I was really his only friend, and after school we hung out most of the time. Whenever I hung out with him, I felt very liberated that we were finally friends again. I couldn't stop thinking, that he said he loved me. I've always wanted that... but now that it happened there wasn't any over joy I felt inside like I would have when I liked him. Sure, I was very eager to hear he loved me, but I'm pretty sure now I am finally starting to get over my massive crush on him. Of course, there were those moments, that when we touched the butterflies in my stomach would start to appear. But I guess, I just didn't care anymore if he did.

I couldn't do homework anymore, I just had too much on my mind. I started making my way to Calum's house, something was bothering me but I didn't quite know what it was yet. I knocked on the door, and Mali answered.

"Calum's upstairs. " She already knew I was there for him. I walked over the creaky, wooden stairs, and made my way to Calum's bedroom. With each step I took, my anxiety grew inside of me. I stood outside the door, listening to him singing and playing the acoustic guitar. He sung with such passion, and warmth. I heard the song lyrics closely, to see if there was a message he was trying to put out.

Yesterday, you asked me something I thought you knew.
So I told you with a smile 'It's all about you'
Then you whispered in my ear and you told me too,
Said, 'You make my life worthwhile, it's all about you'

And I would answer all your wishes, if you asked me to.
But if you deny me one of your kisses, don't know what I'd do.
So hold me close and say three words, like you used to do.
Dancing on the kitchen tiles, it's all about you.

I recognized that the lyrics were to Mcfly's all about you. Was he talking about me? Why would he think about me? With these thoughts running through my head, I hadn't realized I stood there for a long time. I was about to knock on the door when Calum opened it.

"Oh hey Sarah!Come in. " He was blushing.

"Thanks, and sorry I was kind of just listening. You have an amazing voice. " His cheeks flushing even more.

"Thanks Sarah," He said then pulling me into a soft hug. Again, I had those sparks awaken inside of me. "I actually was just about to go talk to you. " The words made my heart beat faster.

"So, what'd you want to talk to me about?" I asked and the words coming out shyly.

"I was about to ask you the same thing. " He gave me an adorable smile with no teeth.

"I just wanted to see if you wanted to hang out, that's all. "

"Great, cause I wanted to talk to you. " He said a placing a hand on my thigh. I must admit, my shorts were pretty short. His touch sent tingles throughout my body.

"Listen, I really like you," his hand slowly moving up my thigh. "And I wanted to make sure that if you had sex, then it would be with someone you knew really well. " Giving a light squeeze on my thigh. I wasn't going to lie, the touch felt irresistible. And I wanted more of it. But, I knew it wasn't right for me to do this right now. I was planning to save my virginity for a relationship that went both ways. I couldn't shake the feeling that I still had growing in my me, that made me dislike Calum after what he had done to me. I love Calum, I really do but this just doesn't feel right to me.

"Calum I-I like you, but not in that way. " I tried putting it as soft as I could.

He nodded his head and said, "I understand. But I also just wanted to let you know, that I love you. And I always will. " He said and forced a smile.

"I love you too. " I hugged him tightly, and wrapping my arms and legs around him. I loved being in his grasp, it made me feel so alive. I started to pull away, but he pulled our faces closer and closer, then our lips finally touched. They moved it perfect sync and seemed to be meant for each other.

I quickly pulled away and said, "I-I'm sorry I have to go. "My mind still seemed to be fixed on the kiss, and I missed the feeling his lips gave mine.

I heard him follow behind me and say," Sarah, wait!" But I had already closed the door.