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Chapter 10: You make me cry

I ran out of the studio with Shawn following behind.
'Damn it! Amelia! Please, wait!' he sounded lost.
I ran to the street. Suddenly my knees hit the floor. I didn't feel pain, I was too focused on my anger. 
My breathing went up in a rapid tempo to the point where I almost couldn't breathe anymore. 
I felt a warm hand on my shoulder but shove it off as I yelled that he could fuck off. My heavily breathing went slower and I felt my mind clearing up.
'Please Amelia, Let me explain..'
I pushed myself up from the ground while avoiding any contact.
'Shut up! Or I'm going to hurt someone really badly.'
shawn sighed.
'Amelia, this isn't you.' he whispered.
I stared at him. I knew I had a deathstare on my face.
'I thought this wasn't you either, I guess we were both wrong.'
My head started bouncing while my nose went all drippy. My anger turned into sadness. I held in my tears so badly it started to hurt. I blinked but eventually the only thing I could see was his silhouette.
'Leave me alone.' I said. My voice was shaking and I couldn't hear myself because of the pounding of my own heart in my ears.
Shawn didn't move. In his eyes I saw that it was taking a toll on him too. 
For a moment I went completly silent and looked at him. Out of the corner of his eye fell a single tear.
Shawn Mendes, who always seemed so happy was crying.
I brushed my thumb over his cheek and wiped away the tear.
'Don't cry.' I whispered.
Shawn stared at his feet as he started talking.
'She kissed me and I pushed away. When I did you were already gone. You know I would never do that to you.'
I let my face down and also watched the ground.
'Do I?' I asked. Immediately I felt his cold fingers touching my chin.
I his eyes I saw he was speaking the truth. But my mind kept pulling me back to the sight of his lips of hers. 
My heart wanted to believe him and make everything good but my mind wanted me to be smart and stronger than that. 
But I speak from experience as I saw I'm naive. I couldn't bear the thought of him being sad about me.
'I believe you.' I said and finally let my tears flow.
He placed his hands on my waist and pulled me closer. His lips were so close to mine and he went in for a kiss. Right as he was about to kiss me I turned my head away from him.
'I can't. It's stuck inside my head. The image of you kissing her, it's going to break me Shawn.'
'It's alright. I'm sorry and I'll be waiting for you until you're ready.' he hugged like he could never let me go.
A heavy sigh escaped my mouth.
'Maybe...maybe we need to take a break. Have some time to come to our senses.' I said as the tears rolled down.
'I can't Amelia. I need you as much as you need me.' his wattery eyes looked like they were staring straight into my soul.
I felt a strong urge and pressed my lips on his. Maybe it was of pity, I guess I'll never know. Love does something to a person and I can't decide if it's good or bad.
'That's because I was crying.' he said quietly  while a weak smile formed on his lips. His teeth sank in his bottom lip. God, he was killing me right now.
'Shut up!' I said. I pulled him closer to him and felt his lips turning into a smile.
'You don't know how much I love you.' he whispered
I pressed my forehead against his as I whispered: 'Love is overrated.'
Slowly I opened my eyes Looked straight into Shawn's
'Will you promise me you'll never leave me?' I knew we still have our whole lifes in front of us but I want my life to spend with him and only him. I have a feeling that we are made for each other.
'I promise. Do you?'
I rested my head on his shoulder. my head on his shoulder and felt how he wrapped his muscular arms around me. 
'I do.'
A silence fell. That silence got interrupted when Shawn said the words that were stuck in both our heads.
'Amelia Blake, will you be my girlfriend?'