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Chapter 6: 'Shut up'

I felt myself smiling while his lips were on mine. My knees felt weak but my heart felt strong.
I couldn't believe that it was really happening. I went all the way back in my mind to the day I met him. To the beginning of how we got here. I didn't think that dream would ever come true.
But what I feel right now isn't a celebrity crush anymore. It's real. It's love.
Shawn slowly pulled back and when I looked him in the eyes he gave me his beautiful smile.
I totally forgot all the paparazzi around us. It was about Shawn and I now.
I rested my head against his chest and he wrapped his arms around my waist.
A smile appeared on my face but I couldn't help it, it came all natural. I felt so lucky and happy to have him.
At the moment I didn't have anyone else but I had Shawn. That's enough for me.
I do have Hailey but she lives on the other side of the world.
'How do you feel?' asked Shawn as the paparazzi left us. 
I sighed in happines. 'Amazed, confused, unexpected, happy.'
I leaned in and gave him a short peck.
He took my hand in his and we walked back to the hotel.
I had left my phone at the hotel and when we got back I've got thousands of notifications.
Hailey had also send me some messages: 

Hey girl,

How are you?

Omg! You're living your best life.

( She sended me a picture of Shawn and me holding hands)

And another message from ten minutes ago:

Holy Fu-!?

Answer me! Don't leave me hanging like this girl!

 Is this you???

( A picture of our kiss)

I answered her a message:

We have some catching up to do but trust me I'm not living my best life. Some things happened, Shawn was there for me.
I think I like him but I also feel kinda bad for not feeling as bad as I should.
I'm having trouble in writing the words down but I'll do it for you.
Mom was in an accident and she fought for her life. She didn't survive.
She died. Mom died yesterday.

It hurted me to write the words: Mom died yesterday.
'Is everything alright.' I heard Shawn's pretty voice from behind me.
'I feel bad. I should be mourning but instead I'm falling in love with you. It feels so unfair towards mom.' I said and I felt tears coming up.
He hitted an arm around me and laid his head on mine. His fingers played with my long hair.
A pleasant silence fell between us. My fingertips stroke on Shawn's arm and he bounded his fingers through mine.
'I'm gonna take a shower.' I said to him as I freed myself out of his grip.
He nodded his head and I went to the bathroom. The door kept unlocked.
When I was in the shower I started singing.
I softly sang the words:

'I promise that one day I'll be around
I'll keep you safe
I'll keep you sound...'

Suddenly I heard the door going open. Shawn didn't look at me. He took off his shoes and socks and walked my way. He stepped into the shower and wrapped his arms around me from behind. I could feel his lips in my neck.
He tried to be as gentle with his touch as possible because of the wound on my back.
I turned around and faced him. My naked body got pressed against his body. The water made his white shirt see-through.
I stood on the tip of my toes and laid my arms in his neck while my fingers went through his hair. His hands softly stroke down my body and rested on my bare hips. He pulled me closer and kissed me strongly. 
 I felt his fingertips pressing into my skin as our kiss became more passionate. 
We both slowly pulled back. I smiled and so did he.
I rested my body against his as the drops fell down on us like rain from the sky.

I stepped out of the shower and turned my hair into a bun while I threw on Shawn's shirt.
When I stepped out of the bathroom I saw Shawn sitting on the bed with his guitar. His wet hair laid on his forehead as cute little curls.
'You do sing pretty good.' he smiled at me. I sat down in front of him on the bed.
'What's your favorite song?' he continued as he strummed his guitar.
'Guess I'll have to go with one of your songs. Probably The Weight. But I also love Mercy.' I said.
He started playing the chords to Mercy and hummed the melody.
I stared at him in disbelief. His voice was so perfect.
I quietly sang with him.
As he playd the last chords a silence fell.
'I recorded us.' he said. In his eyes was a playful shimmer.
'Why?' I laughed at the thought of hearing my own voice.
'Come on, your voice is beautiful! Let me post it on my Instagram.' he stared me straight in the eyes. Almost begging.
'Fine.' I laughed.
He wrapped his arms around and pulled me down with him as he laid down on his back.
I turned around so we could face each other and I crawled on top of him. 
He stretched out his neck and kissedme.
'I love you.' he whispered in my ear.
'Shut up.' I laid my head on his chest and could feel his abs.
He wrapped his arms around me. I focused on his breathing.
I looked up and said: 'I don't express my love in words.' 
A grin played on his lips and he kissed my forehead.
'But if you really want me to express myself in words. Well, here you go. I love you too.'
Shawn burried his face in my hair.
'Shut up.' he said.