The Escape that lead to Another Reason

Chapter 2: Ethan

As I walk down the hall with Aravis and Connor to our first class, I'm thinking again about everything. First let me explain to you who I am and who my best friends are. I'm Ethan, of course, you already know that. In school, well, it's interesting. I don't really fit in. I'm quiet in school and I'm only around Aravis and Connor. I have really blue eyes and really dark hair. Unlike them, who have dark brown eyes and brown hair. It's tough being Connor's friend in my opinion. He isn't hard to be friends with but it's just difficult. What I mean is that whenever I'm around him people tell him things like "why are you with him?"...Just like the little incident in the morning...He's the popular guy everyone wants to be friends with. But it's weird because he never really is with the "popular guys". He's always with me and Aravis. Connor is a really serious, tough person. Also quiet, but in a solemnly way.

Aravis on the other hand was more talkative and sweet. She wasn't popular like Connor. She wasn't really hated either. She is one of the smartest people I know. She stayed out of the drama and no one really paid attention to her. I don't understand why people didn't talk to her. Once you get to meet her you realize how nice and kind she can be. She's never rude or judgemental and she is very understanding.

Anyways back to the walking down the hall. We finally reach our class and hurriedly walk in. The lights are off and the teacher is up at the front talking about some nonsense. No one pays any attention to us walking in. Quietly we go to take some seats in the back of the classroom. As Aravis takes out a notebook and hurriedly tries to catch up with the notes on the board, me and Connor just sit down and start to doze off. I'm sitting there thinking about how two amazing people like Connor and Aravis could possibly like me. I honestly never understood why they chose to stick with me. We have known each other since we were very young. Me and Connor were neighbors our whole lives and we met Aravis in kinder. I don't like other people. I'm an introverted person. I don't like the world. Or myself. I wouldn't mind dying any moment.

I don't think Connor would either. I mean, he's chill and all but I sometimes feel like he feels depressed. He has gone through so much before and I know his family isn't 'perfect'.Which is why he spent the night last night. He has a lot of problems but Connor likes to put aside all his problems and go on. I wish I could do that... Put aside my problems and be happy. Now that I think about it, who ever said Connor was happy? He never showed a sign of being happy or sad. He made jokes but when he did they were quick and unnoticed. When he laughed it only lasted for a while.

Why am I focusing on Connor so much? I didn't... No of course not... It's not like...Like I envied him...That would be ridiculous. I am amazing the way I am. Or that's just what my best friends believe I think of about myself anyways. But it's okay right? :)