Gasoline-- Tronnor AU

Chapter Fourteen- Troye

Home- Ellie Goulding

It's just a game.

Of course it's just a game.

Why would someone like him ever want someone like me. He may not be straight but he's still a fuckboy.

My heart hurt. He makes my heart hurt.

My eyes landed on the number 7 on my whiteboard.

No.

I'm not going to change that number because of some stupid boy who decided to mess with my feelings.

But I couldn't help but think about how his lips felt. So soft and gentle.

Nothing like Matthew. Matthew was always rough. He took my virginity and made me hate my body. Yet I still loved him with all my heart. I thought he loved me back but I was sadly mistaken. He loved someone else.

"Tok, come down for dinner," Mum yelled.

"Coming," I yelled back, dragging myself out of bed.

Tyde and Sage sat at the table. Mum was in the kitchen.

I picked up a bowl of spaghetti and sat on the couch, playing with the fork.

Tyde sat next to me.

"What's wrong," he asked.

Everything.

"Don't lie to me," he warned.

I looked back at Mum and Sage.

"I'll tell you later," I sighed.

I wasn't going to tell him about my eating problems. But I could at least tell him about Connor.

My brother is well known fuckboy. Maybe he might know what I should do.

I'm gonna ask my straight little brother for advice on boys??

Whatever. He wants to know something. I'll tell him something.

***

After everyone left the room, I shoveled my untouched food into the garbage disposal.

When I got to my room, Tyde was waiting on my bed, holding Jagga in his arms.

"Ugh, get the seal off my bed," I groaned.

"Its OK baby," he cooed to the dog. "You're beautiful to me."

He set her down and she wandered back into the hallway.

"Okay now tell me what's wrong," he said.

"How do you know something's wrong," I questioned.

"You didn't touch your food and you haven't said a word since you got back."

"I like someone, he doesn't like me back," I said simply, not letting my emotions show.

"How do you know?"

Do I really have to tell him the whole story?

"If you don't tell me I'll tell Mum," he threatened.

"Why do you care?" I asked.

"Just because. Now tell me."

So fucking stubborn.

"We were playing truth or dare-"

"With Tyler? God, this must of been bad," he laughed.

"The guy I like was dared to kiss whoever he though was the most attractive and he kissed me-"

"Awww," he interrupted again.

"But after he said he doesn't want anything to be awkward because it was just a game," I finished.

"Damn," he said. "He still thought you were the most attractive though. He picked you over Joe? And Zoe?"

I didn't really think about it that way.

The hottest guy in school thinks I'm attractive.

I smiled a bit. A blush spreading over my cheeks

"Aw. You really like him don't you?"

I nodded. "But he just came out I think."

"Who is he anyways?"

"Connor."

Tyde started coughing. "Wait Connor Franta?? The one who dated Bethany Mota? Captain of the swim team?"

Tyde is still in middle school. I don't even know where he finds out all this stuff.

"Yeah that one," I said.

"He's gay!? Awww," he said again. "You guys would be sooo cute!!"

Then Sage popped her head in.

"Who cute with who?! What's happened!?"

Sage lives for gossip. A lot like Tyler.

"Can I tell her," Tyde begged. "Pleaaassee!"

I thought about it. It's not really a secret anyways.

"Sure," I said.

"Connor Franta kissed Troye," he blurted out, bouncing on the bed.

"What!! Really??" She looked to me.

"Yeah," I said the blush coming back.

"OMG TELL ME EVERYTHING!" she screamed, jumping up and down.

We stayed up late talking about everything we didn't get the chance to talk about before.

Except one thing.

The one thing they can never know about.

~V

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