Gasoline-- Tronnor AU

Chapter 28- Troye

Boys Will Be Boys- Benny

I stared at the waves crashing onto the rocks. It was memorizing.

I went back to the place at the top of the hill where we were yesterday. I sat with my legs hanging over the edge.

It was a little far, but I just had to escape for a while.

I had the urge to jump. If I did then all my worries, my problems, my pain... They'd be gone.

I took a deep breath, trying to calm myself. Everything's just been moving too fast.

I loved Matthew.

Matthew left.

I was broken.

I wanted to die.

I met Connor.

Connor makes me want to live.

He makes he happy.

I'm getting better.

I love Connor.

I'm getting better too fast.

Everything is a blur.

Too fast.

My mind is overwhelmed with everything I'm feeling.

"Troye?" A voice came from behind me.

Connor ran up to me, pulling me to my feet and squeezing me.

"I-I was s-so scared. Tro-I thought- I-"

He was crying. For me.

"I'm okay, Con," I said, trying to calm him down before he has a panic attack. "I told you I'd come back."

"I know, but I couldn't find you and I thought you-" He broke down in my arms.

He couldn't even get himself to say it. I could feel his heart pounding in his chest.

"Shh Angel," I said. "It's ok. I'm ok."

"Troye, don't leave like that again! You have no idea how scared I was!" He said, refusing to let me go.

"I know. I'm sorry," I said, cupping his face. I kissed him as an apology.

"I love you," he said, his lips moving against my neck.

I swear my heart stopped beating for moment.

He looked up at me with a soft smile.

I grinned at the words I never thought I'd hear come from his mouth.

"I love you too," I said for the first time.

Connor is my first love.

My first real love.

***

We ditched the beach for a place more private. We all settled at the hot tub back at the house.

Kian and Jc were sitting with these two random girls they met at the beach. Andrea and Eva. Apparently they're from LA too.

Zoe and I sat on the edge of the hot tub with our feet in the water. I scrolled through my various Spotify playlists, looking for one that would match this mood.

I decided on my EDM playlist and connected it to Tyler's outdoor speakers. Yeah... He has those.

Connor sat across from me in the jacuzzi. I kicked my feet splashing water into his face.