Chapter 4

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by edgysucculent

by edgysucculent

   *** Rachel's POV ***
   It's Wednesday, and when I woke up this morning, I thought last night was a dream. But I looked at my phone and apparently it wasn't.
Me - Hi this is Jacob right?
Jacob - Yes who's this?
Me - It's Rachel from school.
Jacob - Oh
Jacob - Hi Rachel
Me - Hi
Me - So why'd you give you my number?
   He's a very fast replier. But when I asked him this, it took him a while to respond. I was hoping that it was going to be something like " because I want to get to know you more " but nope. I got this.
Jacob - Well I really like this one girl and I want to ask her out but I don't know how. Do you have any advice?
Me - Umm sure but why are you asking me?
Jacob - Well because you're one of the only girls I talked to yet and you seem like a cool person.
Me - Uhh thanks? 😂
Jacob - Do you have advice?
Me - Yeah. Just tell her that you like her. Simple as that.
Jacob - Really? Nothing romantic or anything?
Me - It being not romantic is cuter than it being romantic.
Jacob - Oh
Me - Yeah.
Me - So who's this girl?
   I secretly hoped it was me but I didn't say anything.
Jacob - You'll have to see for yourself.
   And that was the last text we sent each other for the night.
   Today, I'm wearing zebra print leggings and a bright yellow top that I'm hoping will blind people but we'll just have to wait and see.
   I got on the bus and sat next to Becky like I normally have. I glanced at Jacob and he glanced back but we didn't talk.
   I explained to Becky about the conversation Jacob and I had last night and she said she thinks he likes me. Hopefully it's true, it would be a miracle if he did.
   Later that day in lunch, Becky and I sat together and Jacob also sat with us but he was late to lunch because he was clearing stuff up with Mrs. Raymond.
" I hope it's you he was talking about because you two would be insanely cute together." Becky told me.
" Yeah me too."
Jacob came in and sat down with us. He grinned as if he was extra happy.
" Why are you so happy?" I asked. " Oh. If it's about asking someone out, I already explained our conversation last night." Becky nodded in excitement as if she was expecting something. Jacob broke a smile.
" I think I should do it tomorrow," he told us. " I haven't practiced and I don't know if I'm ready."
" You should do it today!" Becky told him a little to demanding, but in an excited way. " But like, no pressure or anything. I just think it would be cuter if you didn't practice because then it would be coming from your heart, not something you've practiced. Besides, you'd probably forget and not stick to the script anyway."
Jacob looked down and smiled unsurely.
" True." He said.
" Really?!" Becky said in excitement. I brushed my hair to the side like I normally do and I was smiling.
" Yeah. I'll be right back." He told us. He walked away.
" Wait... why is he walking away?" I asked Becky.
" Probably to go fix his hair or something. He shouldn't be gone too long." She replied.
But we both turned around when we heard his voice clearly from across the room. Becky's mouth dropped. He was standing across from a girl ten times prettier than me. She had long, curly brown hair, an ear cuff, a floral dress, gold sandals and way too much makeup on.
" Tori Andersons, will you go out with me?" Jacob asked. She said yes. I turned around, trying to hide the fact of my jealousy, but Becky obviously noticed.
" Of course." Becky rolled her eyes.
" What?" I sniffled.
" That girl." She scoffed
" What about her?"
" Tori Andersons. I knew her last year. Jacob and I went to school with her last year. All the boys had the hots for her. I've had my personal experiences. She looks extremely sweet and loving, but inside she's an ugly witch. I wouldn't worry to much about her, Jacob's been wanting her for a while."
" You went to school with Jacob last year?! Why didn't you tell me?" I was crying by this point.
" It didn't matter. He didn't even know me. I used to be that quiet kid that no one knew. That's why he looked like he had never seen me before just like he looked at you. If you try talking to him about it, it would be news to him." Becky replied to me.
" Oh. Okay." I said with tears in my eyes. Next thing I knew, she pulled me into a comforting hug.
" What happened?" Jacob asked. We looked up, shocked. He was the last person I wanted to see.
" Nothing." I replied.
" Something's wrong." He wasn't sticking to the script and he was still wondering. Luckily for me, Becky's a good liar.
" Her grandmother died. She was supposed to go on a trip to Florida to see her grandmother again for winter break, but she got too sick and passed away. Anything else you need to know?" Becky asked in a tone I'd never heard her in before.
" Oh. I'm sorry." Jacob walked away and sat at his new girlfriend's table.
" Thank you for lying for me, Becky."
" Anytime. He's so not right in the mind." Becky said which made me laugh but in a confused way.
" How?"
" He sees that you're crying, he demanded to know, and now that he just had to know what happened, he acts like he doesn't care and walks away. Who does that?"
I shook my shoulders. I was hurt by this.
" Can we go to the mall on Friday? I need a new closet. I was looking at all of my clothes this morning and I realized that most of it has writing on it and band things and fangirl things and honestly I think I'm starting to grow out of it all." I told Becky honestly. I really was. Of course I wasn't going to give it all away, but I was dressing like a four year old and I was tired of it.
" Yes! Same, actually. I need a new closet. These are actually my mom's old clothes. The Stranger Things shirt I wore the other day was the only shirt that actually fits me. So we should totally go to the mall!" She squealed. We both went and threw out our trays.
I was happy I was going to the mall with my best friend. It's good for a change every once in a while. Technically, I wasn't changing my whole style. Just taking away some of it.
   When I got home, I saw that I got a text from Jacob.
Jacob - Hey
Me - Hi
Jacob - What happened today?
Me - What do you mean?
Jacob - Why were you crying today at lunch?
Me - My grandmother died and we were supposed to be visiting her for winter break. She just got too sick.
Jacob - Oh. Yeah. Sorry. I forgot that Becky told me.
Me - Yeah
Jacob - Are you okay though? Is there anything I can do?
Me - No. You can't bring her back.
Jacob - True. I just wish there was something I could do.
Me - Well there's not. Sorry.
Jacob - ☹️
Me - Goodnight Jacob.
Jacob - Gn
   But I didn't want it to be a good night. In fact, I wanted to tell him, " bad night," instead of good night, because I couldn't care less whether he had a good night or not.
   I looked around my room. It's filled with fuzzy things, pink, posters, band merchandise. I've been saving up money for God knows what, and I have about four hundred dollars now. Maybe I could get some new room things. But then again, not take everything out, just replace a few things.
   So I texted Becky.
Me - Hey! Are we still going to the mall Friday?
Becky - Yes of course!
Me - I think I'll get a few new room things.
Becky - I've never been over your house so I can't say whether or not I agree.
Me - I live on Bryson Street.
Becky - Wait... you do? What address?
Me - 23... why?
Becky - Omg! I live across from you!
Me - You do? How come I've never seen you?
Becky - Probably because I get down at the bus stop say earlier than you.
Me - True
Becky - Wait. Wave out your bedroom window.
I wave out my bedroom window and I see her. She waves back.
Becky - I see you! That's so cool!
Me - Yeah.
Becky - I'm so tired! Gn!
Me - Same. Gn.
I get out of bed and get my pajamas. They, again, are very four year old-ish and I need new ones.
I go and brush my teeth. My toothbrush is from the Flinstones, my toothpaste is Spongebob. I never realized how childish I was until now.
I roll my eyes at the fact of how weird I am and when I looked in the mirror, I realized that my roots were so extremely dark. You couldn't see it that much, but it was kind of noticeable. I think I'll go natural sometime but not any time soon. I'll wait until my roots are showing badly.
I crawl into bed with my DC Comics blanket and zebra print sheets and I just thought for a while.
Why do guys like girls who wear pounds of makeup? Or the ones who dress like they just came back from a Victoria's Secret fashion show? Although, Victoria's Secret PINK has some really nice things and I enjoy it in there.
I went on my phone and made a list of stores to go to while we're at the mall.
Victoria's Secret
Sephora
Rue 21 ( it was where I got some of my clothes )
Hot Topic ( my life )
Any stores I find interesting.
Wow. I'm the greatest person at lists. Note the sarcasm.
The reason why I always get no sleep is most likely because I'm always on my phone. People say that when you're on your phone in the night time, it helps you stay up. But honestly it just damages your eyes from the light and being in the dark.
I just kept thinking about Becky and Jacob going to school last year. It's so weird. And what had happened between Becky and Tori Andersons? Tori looks sweet and you could tell she was happy when Jacob asked her out. I wonder what had happened.
I would've just asked Becky right then and there but it was eleven at night and she was probably sleeping. So I guess I'd have to wait until tomorrow.
I realized I do need a little makeup though. My eyelashes are so non existent and my face is filled with blemishes and acne in some places. I guess I never really noticed, because I would barely even look in the mirror before. I used to be so obsessed with my bands and fandoms that I wouldn't do anything for weeks straight in the summertime because of how obsessed I was. But I calmed down from then.
I looked up some videos of makeup tutorials on YouTube and found some really pretty ones. When I go to Sephora, I want to get foundation and natural eyeshadow palettes. I also like dark lipsticks as well.
I got up out of bed and went over to my dresser. I turned on a light which is very bright and it didn't affect me at all since I had been staring at my phone for the past two hours. I had the tiniest amount of makeup ever. I looked over in my makeup bag to see what I had and apparently I had a foundation from years ago, it's old, and has grown mold, mascara that expired months ago, an eyeshadow compact with gold, black and grey and the eyeshadows were crushed along with the case, and one pink lipstick that's from the dollar tree and really ugly. I groaned. I threw all four things in the trash, turned off my light, and crawled back into bed.
I really need an update on life.