imagines; c. d & s. m

| S. M. | Once I'm Gone |

"Babe, I'm going home late tonight. I'm really sorry but I need to do a lot of work" he said through the phone.

He always come home late and we're not spending each other's time together.

"Okay" I said coldly and ended the phone call. I'm mad and at the same time sad.

I miss him and I feel empty without him. I decided to buy some food outside and bring it to his office.

I wore some ripped jeans and white shirt. I grabbed my keys and started the engine.

I bought some food and ready to go at his office. I approached a girl at the counter.

"Is Shawn Mendes still here?" I asked her and she nodded while smiling widely.

"You're beautiful. You're Mr. Mendes' girlfriend right?" She asked and I nodded.

"Thank you" I said and go to his office. I fixed myself and knocked on the door.

Shawn opened it. His hair is messy and the top of his flannel, it's unbuttoned.

He's sweating too. My eyebrows knotted and he looked at me.

"Hey babe" he greeted and I'm still confused. Why is he sweating and why the top of his flannel are unbuttoned?

"Why you're sweating and-" he cuts me off by saying "it's hot here, in my office" he said.

"Really? Can I go inside?" I asked. I'm about to take my step when he stopped me.

"No, no. Someone will fix it later on" he said and he looks like he's covering something.

"I brought you some food" I said and lift up the paper bag that I'm holding.

"Oh yeah, thanks babe" he said and kissed my forehead. I smelled something.

It's not his perfume. I know his perfume and I know it's not his. It's a girl's perfume.

"Can I go inside? I want to eat my dinner with you" I said and he bit his lip in nervousness.

"Just wait me outside" he said and I shook my head. "Just let me in, Shawn" I said seriously.

I sighed and pushed him so I can go inside of his office. He followed me and I looked back at him.

"It's not that hot here" I said and he look at random things. "I just find it hot, I guess" he lied.

"Is there something wrong, Mendes?" I asked him while I settle the paper bag at his desk.

I crossed my arms when I looked back at him. He's standing there looking for words.

I noticed something, there is a pink croptop on his couch. I go near and Shawn was about to stop me.

"No" I said and I pick it up. I looked at it and smelled it. It's the perfume that I smelled from Shawn's flannel.

"What the fuck is this, Shawn?" I asked him and showed it to him. He don't know how to explain it.

"You idiot" I said and throw it to him. I go far away from him and I looked at him.

"Why do you need to lie to me, Shawn? Why do you need to tell me that you're going home late because you have a lot things to do?" I cried.

"So this is what you call work? This is what you're doing that's why you're going home late?" I sob.

"Why, Shawn? Why? You let me sit at the house and wait for you to come home!" I pulled the strand of hair behind my ear.

"I fucking hate you, Shawn!" I screamed and he ran to me, hugging me tightly.

"No! Don't you ever touch me! You touched or held other girl's body so don't you ever touch me!" I cried pushing him away.

He tried hugging me but I kept pushing him away. He's now crying too.

"How long are you doing this?" I asked him calmly, not wanting to burst out.

"A week" he said and I sighed in disbelief. "A week? Oh my god, Shawn" I said.

"It's only one week Y/N!" He yells and I rolled my eyes.

"Only a week!? If you have a girlfriend and you had s-x with a girl even only for one day, it's called cheating!"

"Flirting through text is already cheating and this? This is too much, you're having s-x with a girl, Shawn"

"I don't know if I can forgive you" I said and I started walking away from him.

I'm near to the door when I bumped into a girl. "Shawn, sweetie. Oh, I'm sorry" she said.

"Are you Shawn's maid?" She asked and my eyes widens. I slapped her and she looks at me.

"I'm his girlfriend b-tch!" I screamed and pushed her. I grabbed her hair. (I'm like yaz)

I pulled it inside and Shawn started stopping me. "Don't stop me from what I'm doing Shawn!" I said.

I slapped her once again and pulled her hair harshly. Shawn stopped me and they're standing beside each other.

"You are a slut!" I told to the blonde girl as I slapped her on the face again.

I looked back at Shawn. "You're a liar and you're useless" I told him and he looked at me in hurt.

"You'll know my worth once I'm gone in your life" I said and slapped him.

"I've loved you Shawn. I stayed up all night just to wait for you to come home"

"I won't trust you anymore" I said and left them there. I go back home and started packing my things up.

Shawn's POV

I woke up and I turn over, hoping that Y/N will be there. I sighed when I saw nothing but an empty space.

I opened the cabinet and none of her clothes are there. Some of my sweater that she's wearing, she put it back.

I convinced her to stay with me last night but she didn't. I'm such an idiot to do it to her.

I go downstairs and I remebered that, as I go downstairs, I can smell the food that she's cooking.

I sat one of the chair in the island table and she turn around with a plate on her hand.

She handed it to me and gave me a kiss on the forehead. "Morning" she said while smiling cheekly.

But it's only a memory. I missed her and I feel really empty. She's right, I'll know only her worth once she's gone.