imagines; c. d & s. m

Can I... Can I be her? S. M.

I missed doing an imagine so here's one. Hope u liked it and btw I missed u guys as well. ♥
Shawn again? Why the fuck not right? Lmao. I hope I can do another one which is going to be dAddY Cam ♥ they're both daddies and I can't, I'm screaming

Inspired by James Arthur's song "Can I be him" *cries* ♥

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I sighed, staring at the clock on the wall as I went at school early. I was totally out of my mind, thinking about him again and how lucky her girlfriend is; they're about like one year and I'm still here supporting the two of them even though it hurts everyday to see them together. Who am I talking about? Shawn Mendes and no one else. He's my bestfriend for five years and those years, I had feelings for him and the sad thing is, until now he doesn't know. Everytime he walks in the class, I swear I feel like my heart's been stolen. My thoughts were gone when he opened the door to see him with his girl, letting her get inside first before him. In that second, I can feel my heart breaks into pieces.

Shawn Mendes, the guy who I wish I was with. I mean, you know, a true relationship, not stuck in friendship. But I know from the start he doesn't like me because there are a lot pretty girls than me like Ellie, his girlfriend. I can't lie, the truth is, I was jealous of Ellie. Shawn wrote a song for her and it's just - oh god knows how it hurts.

She waved at her friends in the back row while Shawn followed her and our eyes met for a while; he smiled and I smiled back. I gasped for air when I can still feel my heart ache. I stared at my desk and wait for my teacher to arrive. As the time goes on, the bell rang means it's already lunch break. I fixed my things and went outside to lean against the locker while I wait for Aaliyah, Shawn's sister.

Just imagine that Aaliyah is in third year of highschool while the both of u were fourth year lmao. Just imagine okay? Okay.

"There you are," she smiled while I was playing with my fingertips. I stood up straight and let out a smile without even looking at her because she knows me well. She could tell I'm still broken hearted about Shawn and Ellie. She knows everything, that back then I already have feelings for his brother. Her eyebrows knotted and sighed. "Him again?" I just shrugged and walked away with her beside me. We sat on our usual table and seats, exactly when my phone vibrated. I put it out to see Shawn texted me.

Anything wrong? You're just quiet and... I'm not used to it. I know there's something wrong and you're not telling me.

Aaliyah just shook her head and I just read it without replying. We stood up to get something to eat and when I returned, something caught my eye. I saw Shawn talking with hand movements, the vein on his neck was showing up and I can tell that Ellie's annoyed. They're probably having an argument. I shook my head and headed back to our place. After we ate our lunch, we go to our seperate ways and our next was going to the library. I sighed in relief; a time to think about things or maybe just rest my mind since we don't have anything to do unless you want to read something what's on the shelves.

When I lift my head up, I'm exactly facing Shawn and Ellie arguing. They're sitting in front of me, but they're on the second table and they are trying to talk through whisper and I could tell that Shawn's about to burst. Gosh, I don't want to see the both of them. I stood up and it got Shawn's attention. Yet I didn't looked at him and turn away to find some other seat where I can't see the both of them.

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The bell rang and finally, the exhausted me stood up after our last teacher left. I fixed my things, taking my time and everybody left which made me feel free. As I opened the door, I went straight through the right and stopped after taking two steps when I saw Shawn against the wall; his back and head leaning against it. I quickly walked away with my hair down so he won't see me but he grabbed me by the wrist and turn me around. I looked at him and was astonished as always at how angelic his face was.