Change me

Chapter 6

Hailey's POV

I wake up with a huge headache and some guy laying next to me. Well at least he looks good. I step out of the bed, reach for my phone and see all the pictures that were taken yesterday at the party. Oh crap... I think I'm gonna puke. I run through the hallway and search for the toilet but I can't fucking find it "Where the fuck is the toilet?" I scream and just a few seconds later.....I puke on the floor. "What the hell HAILEY, don't you know where the toilet is?" Talia says angrily. "I'm so sorry but I didn't see the toilet and I still don't so it's not my fault " I say and I know that I'm right. "The toilet is on the other side, are you still drunk? Or did you take any pills yesterday? Because if you did...." "Okay Talia you are going way too fast here, I didn't take any pills yesterday and maybe I'm still drunk" I say before I puke again. "Okay, enough Hailey stand up and clean after yourself, thank you." "Right, thanks for the help I guess" I mean it's not my fault that she has good booze.

While I'm cleaning the floor I try to remember everything that happened yesterday "I have quite a crazy life" I say to myself laughing. No but seriously I actually do. I go from a smile to a serious face in just a second. How does Sam fit in all of this? Why did he came up in my head? Did I do something with him? Because if I did I'm going to puke again. Okay I need to calm the fuck down and try to remember everything. I see pictures in my head of Sam outside screaming at me and suddenly I remember everything. I feel guilty that I said those things to him. Well this day can't get any better than this. I leave all the cleaning stuff on the floor and leave quickly, I take my jacket and close the door quietly so Talia doesn't hear me. I walk as fast as I can to my house but I feel like my feet aren't moving at all, really could it get any worse than this? I see someone just some feet away and when I look closer I see Sam, well clearly this day could get worse.

"Hi, ehh Samuel? Wait is that even your name?" I say while he walks closer "Hi" he says and just walks by. "Really? Well I see that you are in a good mood today." I say annoyed. He walks faster and doesn't respond and now I feel even more annoyed. I know that what I said yesterday was wrong but I was trying to talk to him now. Not that I care about him but... I don't know, I don't know how my brain is working right now everything is just messed up.

Finally I'm home, I take my keys, open the door and walk in. I look around to see if my dad is home and he is. Well I should get prepared to have a massive fight with him. "Well who do we have here?" he says very calm but I know that in just a few minutes he will be screaming at me.
"You don't even know who your own daughter is or what?" I say annoyed "I thought I did but I don't know if I do" "Okay what the fuck does that mean?" I say really angry, he shouldn't be saying stuff like that when he doesn't even try to get to know me. "I'm saying the truth here Hailey, you think that you can do whatever you want just because I'm not home? Or you think you can talk to me in that way you do just because your boyfriend passed away? I'm really trying to help you but you don't want any help and it's hard for me to know what you feel when you don't talk to me. I don't even know how school is going because you always shut me out of your life and it's not fair Hailey!" He says angrily. "YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO BRING UP DYLAN! You really think I would talk about my life with you when you have no idea  how to talk about feelings and shit and if you have a problem with me partying and having fun then I will fix it by moving out! You think that my life has been easy just because I'm a teenager? Well you are wrong and I'm not talking about school and shit I'm talking about losing people that I love like my mom and Dylan." I say while I burst out in tears. "I... I am so sorry Hailey... or you know what I'm not sorry because now I know what you were holding inside you and I can help you" "No dad I don't want any help, I don't want pity and I definitely don't want a  pep talk. I just want some space. And in case you're wondering about school, well I'm failing all my classes ... proud?" I leave him standing there in the hallway, alone, and I run upstairs.

When I see my bed I lay down and search for my phone in my pocket  but it isn't there, where is it? Oh shit I must have left it at Talia's, well great, this day just keeps getting better! Instead of using my phone I take my computer. I open it and log in on Facebook and I know that Facebook is like for old people but I like it okay. Well let's see what we have here, I see some really nice pics of me from the party and I also see ME KISSING RYAN? Ohh hell noooo I really have to control my drinking, what's gonna happen next? Me kissing my cousin?! I scroll down and see that one of my friends tagged Sam in a picture and the caption says "Hey buddy we miss you at the party"

This is so cringy, It's starting to look like a movie where two people fight and the next day they are soulmates who are helplessly in love. Anyways I click on Sam's profile and check his pictures, one of the pictures is with a girl well its probably his sister or something. Then I see another picture where he is kissing the same girl. Ehh... okay, I think it's enough of stalking for today but just for today. Before I turn off my computer I should probably send him a friend request.. or maybe not ... should I? While debating in my head I accidentally click the button so now I've just sent him a request and now I'm so dead and I sound girly as fuck. Really what is happening? I think that all the alcohol is killing my brain cells.