Handling Glass | ✔

Chapter Twenty

I stood still in the middle of the silent corridor. I was stunned and then all of a sudden I was filled with rage, he can't just come out with this bull. I turned around and stormed back up to him.
"No." I shouted in his face. "You can't do that to me."
"But it's true Hermione!" He pleaded. I shook my head and turned to go but he grabbed my shoulders forcing me to face him.
"Please, just give me another chance!" He begged. Did I still love him? I looked up at him and my heart turned to sludge. When I spoke again my voice was softer.
"Just, give me some time." Kyle let me go this time when I tried to walk away. I tried to keep my head up confidently as tears spilled down my face and I walked away, feeling Kyles stare burning into the back of my head.

He can't just say that, who does he think I am forgiving him that quickly?
"Hermione, I need to tell you something." Does he really think I'm that weak? I'm not that desperate.
"Hermione, are you listening to me?" What if I do go back to him? He might just hurt me again.
"Hermione!" Ron brought me out of my daze.
"What?"
"Are you listening to me?!"
"Yeah sure." I drifted off.
"Hermione I'm trying to tell you something." Ron slammed his hands on the table. I looked up at him.
"What is it?" Rom rolled his eyes and walked off.
"Ron?!" I called after him but he ignored me. I turned back around again sighing to see Harry sitting next to me. I jump.
"God, Harry don't do that." I scolded him putting me hand on my heart.
"Sorry. What's wrong?" I shrugged.
"Nothing."
"Hermione, how long have I known you?"
"Harry just leave it please?" He held his hands up.
"Fine, leaving it." He told me before walking off. I decided that I'm done with my work and I too leave the table.
"Hermione?" I heard that dreaded voice behind me as I travelled down the corridor. I slowly span around to find Kyle standing in front of me.
"Hi."
"What do you want?"
"To talk."
"Fine. Talk."
"Have you thought about what I said yet?"
"No Kyle I haven't decided yet." I turned around and started walking up my dorm stairs.
"Stop following me Kyle." I told him sighing.
I continued up the stairs and walked into my room and find Kyle behind me. I rolled my eyes.
"Kyle go away." He stepped toward me.
"You know that's the opposite of going away." He stepped closer. He held my face in his hands and I tried to pull away. It he pulled me back.
"Kyle." I tried to say but my heart was in my throat. His face moved closer to mine.
"I can't." I choked out as the butterflies flooded my stomach. Before I could attempt to react, Kyle pressed his lips onto mine. I tried to pull away but the shape of his lips were so comforting. I kissed back and his lips travelled down to my neck. We fell back onto my bed and the kiss got deeper. His hands searched my body and when he started unbuttoning my jeans that's when my mind cleared.
"No Kyle stop." I demanded and tried to shove him off.
"Aw come on." He chuckled as he continued. I shoved his hands away to just have them go back again. His kisses turned stronger and it wasn't nice anymore.
"Kyle, stop." I told him starting to get scared and feel really uncomfortable. He stopped to my relief and looked at me.
"Hermione, come on."
"No I don't want to." I hadn't told him but I was still a virgin and I didn't want to lose it to this idiot, no matter how he makes me feel.
"Hermione, stop being such a prude." He told me.
"But I don't want to." I said my eyes welling up. He looked down at me with a look that said 'seriously?'. He was making me feel pathetic for not wanting to. He wiped the tear from my face and gave me a smile.
"Come on beautiful." He whispered. I hesitated still.
"I mean you have to do it eventually." How did he know?
"And who else is going to give you this opportunity." Anger filled me and I shoved him off.
"No babe, come on, I didn't mean it like that." He placed his hand on my shoulder but I shrugged it off. I sat on the edge of my bed looking down for a second before I feel his lips on my neck.
"Come on babe it's stupid being a virgin. In my opinion I think it makes you a bit weak." I sighed, he was right how stupid am I not to have sex. He took my silence as me hesitating still so he stood up.
"Fine, be that way. Your such a prude." Kyle started to walk out the door but I grabbed his arm stopping him. He was right, if I lost this opportunity I would stay a virgin forever, no one else would want to do it with me. Why would they? He turned around looking down at me. I slowly reached up and pressed my lips to his neck. He smirked and pushed me onto the bed before straddling himself on top of me. I just had to get this over and done with so I closed my eyes, wishing it to be over.
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Okay don't judge Hermione for this, this is called peer-pressure. She's been made to feel undervalued and made to feel like she has to do it to be normal. Don't ever let someone make you feel like that. Stand up for yourself and know that you're beautiful and strong and not worth that shitty person. Respect yourself and the people who are worth a thought will respect you too. Love you so much my little beautiful weirdos 😘