Being Us

Chapter Five

I sat up trying to read but I couldn't. It's five o'clock now so I've got like fourteen hours left to keep myself awake. It's Saturday today so tonight I have to go to bed at ten o'clock tonight. I haven't slept at all because I'm trying to reset my internal clock. I was reading a book, which is a very bad idea because I'm falling asleep. I decided to clean my not messy house. I turned on some music and started. There was rapping at my door, loud and obnoxious too.

"Rina! Rina open your door!"

I startled and slunk over to the door. Through the peep hole I seen the one face I hated the most. I opened the door and he walked inside. He looked around evaluating my newish place, then made his way to my couch.

"What do you think you're doing here Carter?"

He smirked.

"Well, since you ignore most of my calls and refuse to come back to me, I've decided to come to you."

He stood back up and came up close to me. I folded my arms and turned away.

"Look Rina. I know I messed up okay? I more than messed up. I screwed myself out of the best relationship I've ever been in."

"I was the third."

"But you were still one of them."

"I can't do this Carter."

He grabbed my arm gently and looked at me intensely.

"You're not even trying R. Can't you just forgive me?"

I shook my head.

"I'm not trying? I stayed with you even after you cheated the first time because you insisted she kissed you. Then with that dumb blonde Ashley that was the line and you crossed it. You cheated on me Carter. I tried forgiving you because I still love you, but now I really hate you too."

He grabbed my chin and pulled up my face. It was hard to even look at him because I knew that looking at him would keep me loving him.

"Can we just try, please Rina?"

He begged.

"I don't know. I'm not gonna give you false hope. It's too hard now. It won't work between you and I. You can stay for a while, I'm not going to send you back at five in the morning but I don't want to talk about this unless I initiate the conversation okay? Ifcan't just go back now. I'm building my life here now. I've got a job that I'm starting on Monday. I'm starting a new Rina. Plus I fricken hate Cape Cod it's the worst place to ever be."

He nodded.

"Okay. Can we just hang out then?"

"Yeah. Um, are you hungry? I'll make breakfast."

"Yeah okay."

I walked into the kitchen and he lingered for a few moments still checking out the apartment.

"I like this place"

He called walking into the bedroom.

"Yeah? Me too. That's why I live here."

He laughed and came into the kitchen. To be honest the kitchen is kind of messy, i hate cleaning up food. It's not too bad, the counter are a bit messy and the dishes aren't done but that's it. Carter came into the kitchen and laughed again.

"You've never been good about cleaning the kitchen."

I smiled.

"I don't like handling partially eaten food it grosses me out."

"I guess. So besides rebuilding new Rina, how has R been doing?"

I shrugged looked over at him.