Being Us

Chapter Six

Grey came back over, now that Carter had gone and he's sober now. I made him sit down on the couch and I sat next to him, crossing my legs.

"What happened between you and your mom Grey?"

He smiled and looked down sadly.

"That's what this is about."

"Yeah, you were completely silent for a prolonged period of time yesterday and you showed up drunk off your ass at six o'clock in the morning. There's something wrong, I haven't even known you for all that long and I can see that already. So fess up."

He looked up at me, his blue eyes glossing over.

"My dad killed himself right? It was my fault. I was a bad kid and one day I decided to go out at night. My parents were both drunks but my dad was a good one. He came out looking for me and found me doing something horrible, which I will never tell anybody. Not even you, understand? Never will I ever tell anybody."

I nodded my understanding and placed my hand in his knee, encouraging him to continue.

"He told me that he'd come up for an excuse for what happened but if I did anything like it again he'd hand me over to the police himself. The guilt of knowing what I'd done had rotted his heart and he was left a shell. Depressed and drunk with a horrible wife who he'd been stuck with, which was also my fault, accumulated he decided he couldn't handle it anymore... He couldn't handle life anymore. The very sight if me disgusted him. It only took a few months for him to realize why I did what I did, and so he took himself away. He just dropped out, like that."

"I'm sorry Grey."

He nodded and continued.

"My mom still doesn't know what I did or the exact reason my dad killed himself. She just has a knowing inside of her that it was my fault."

"What were you guys talking about when we were there?"

I asked, he looked up at me agin.

"She asked me what had happened and I told her what I've always told her but she pushed and pushed and pushed and finally she called me evil and literally said that she blamed me for his death. She said I wasn't allowed there ever again. Now I can't see my siblings. What am I going to do? Rina I don't know what to do!"

He started sobbing into his hands. I grabbed his arm and pulled him into my shoulder shushing him.

"We'll figure something out Grey I promise."

I felt him nod and he tried to calm himself down. He sniffles a few times and tried talking again.

"I just love them you know?"

He got out, his voice cracking a bit.

"I know Grey."

"I need to visit them sometimes to make sure she's not hitting them or to make sure they're being fed and going to school. They're too young I need to take care of them I always have!"

He cried again. I feel so sorry for him but I can't help but wonder how he's so comfortable and open already with me. Sure it's been about a month. Never mind, people can get close within a month. Can't they? I ran my fingers through his hair and he just laid there. His cheek pressed against my collar bone.

"You're really comfortable."

He said, I chuckled.

"I know, I've been told."

He smiled and looked up at me.

"Wanna go to the roof?"

He asked me. I smiled and nodded at him. We climbed up and up the ladder finally coming to the top he lifted me over.