I was in a deep sleep. The sun smiled brightly taking over my room with her bright teeth.
But I didn't wake up to that beautiful scene.
"WAKE UP AIRBAG! ITS YOUR FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL. YOU'RE GONNA BE LATE TO YOUR BUS" my mom screamed insanely into my ears. I groaned. "fine mum. I'm awake" I simply said not wanting to cause problems. "GET UP NOW" she grabbed me by my hair and pushed me into the bathroom.
I looked at myself in the mirror and cried quietly. "This is such a lovely way to start my day" I said, wiping away my tears and getting ready to go to school.
"Mom. What is for breakfast?" I said going downstairs yet so slowly. "You have no breakfast today. You're already late! Get going!!" She yelled at me pointing her fingers sternly at the door. "Yes mom" I said quietly heading out of the house.
As I was walking to the bus stop I kept thinking about a lot of stuff. "I gotta fake my smiles today....this is tiring" I muttered softly as I waited patiently for the bus to arrive. I looked down at my feet looking at my bruises that I got from being abused at home. I smiled weakly and pulled my socks a bit Higher. "There we go. Perfectly fine" I smiled brightly as I lifted my head and saw the bus coming my way.
"Come on Nell.You can do it~" I encouraged myself as I entered the bus looking way too excited. 'If they just knew'.
"May I sit her ma'am?" I asked an old woman sweetly smiling. "No. Can't you see i am an old woman who needs her comfort?" She glared at me. "Oh I'm sorry ma'am. I'm sorry" I apologized multiple times to her and she just turned away ignoring me.
My smile didn't leave my face at all. It was a mask I'm wearing after all.
I looked around to find any seat I could set on but all of them were occupied by fake people.
I gave up. I have been giving up so much lately.
"Music will help" my brain spoke to me. I slightly nodded and plugged on my earphones listening to some gentle piano. I found them soothing to my ears since all my life all I heard were screams and people yelling for irrelevant reasons.
I was humming to the piano peaceful until the bus suddenly stopped and I fell to the ground. "Ah-" I slightly left a painful groan. No one came to help me. No one would even care. All they do care for is themselves and only them. Please...
"I wish I could care for myself at least..." I thought as I immediately stood up and gathered my stuff. I held my stuff really tight and looked down ashamed. "Ah-" I felt pain in my elbow when I pulled my shirt sleeves up to see a wound and my reckless blood flowing out of it.
"How wonderful" I thought smiling brightly and gently tapping it with some tissues I found in my bag that I had years ago. "It would stop soon Nell. Don't worry. Just smile happily" I reminded myself as I stood out of the bus heading to the schools gates.
"Nell!" I heard a familiar voice calling my name excitedly. I turned around and chuckled. "Mindy~ " I waved as she runs to me hugging me tightly. It was a really warm hug but little did she know I was paining from all the bruises I have, little did anyone know.
"I'm so sorry I can't tell you Mindy .." I thought feeling really guilty and bad. She pulled away from our hug and cupped my chubby cheeks immediately "I missed u so much" she showed her shimmering smile making her dimples shine out even more. "I missed u more u clumsy" I teased her and slowly moved her hands away from my cheeks.
•••at school•••
"listen Nell, I Gtg now to my class. See ya~" she waved and left running hurriedly to her class. Meanwhile me? Ah I was just walking as slow as I can. Why you may ask? Because I didn't want to hear people talk about me no more.
It's not like I felt hurt or anything. I just wanna relax their lips for a while.
"You are late again!" My teacher scolded me. Yeah I know I'm not stupid, I don't have to be reminded. "Sorry Mrs.Laura" I politely said and bowed slowly feeling the strain in my back screaming in pain. "Your sorry won't change anything miss. I'm disappointed in you Nell" She subjected.
'Do u want me to kill myself then?' My brain got pissed off but nothing left my chapped lips.
"I'll work harder in my studies mrs and I'll get higher marks". I tried to please her by working my ass off. "Oh~look who's talking. The nerd herself" one of the popular girls, Lisa said, cracking the whole class up. I didn't even care so I didn't turn to look at her or my classmates.
"SILENCE!" Mrs.Laura demanded as she hit her fist really hard on the desk causing everyone to shut up. She slowly turned around to me and I saw a pitiful smile starting to form on her lips. I hated it. I hated it when people gave me their pitiful smiles. As if...as if they know what I'm going through.
"Fine Nell. I'll forgive you this time, but next time don't you ever be late again or you will get your punishment. Okay?" She warned and I just nodded back smiling. "You may go sit on your seat now. You interrupted us way too much already" Mrs.Laura said as she went back to her explanations.
—break time—
"Finally I get to see Mindy" I placed my stuff in my bag and grabbed my lunch as I headed to the cafeteria.....alone.
"Omg look at her haha she looks like a freak" I heard people talking about me making it way too loud and obvious but at the end they are just 'whispering'. "Loser" a boy passing by me spat out what 'he really wanted to say'. "Ew wtf is she wearing?" Some girls passed me saying 'their opinions'.
'Didn't give a fuck yesterday,don't give a fuck today, and in all honesty I won't probably give a fuck tomorrow either' I thought smirking shamelessly.
"Nell!come on i already got u a plate" she excitedly waved her hands signaling me to come. I smiled widely to the point my cheeks were hurting but I didn't care as long as it was for a person I care for. "Come on. Sit over here" she tapped her hands on the chair next to her and I gladly sat down as we started eating.
"Have you heard about Lisa?" Mindy whispered to me with her cute wide eyes.
"The popular girl in our school, Lisa?" I asked curious as she nodded.
'What about her now?'
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The Nice People| Tom holland
Genç Kurgu"If you could see what I feel, if anxiety, sadness , and loneliness were physical wounds that decorate my body in red lines and purple marks, would you be shocked at how bloody and bruised I really am?" -Nell "I already saw it..." -T.H. ••••••••••••...