INMATES (Destiel Prison AU)

Chapter Ten

My first initial thought after Dean left was to call April and confess to her. I couldn't live with myself knowing that I had cheated so, the quicker I told her, the better.

Hurriedly, I rushed to the phone booths and dialled in her number. It rang four times before she answered.

"Hello?"

"April!" I breathed out, half nervous and half relieved, "It's Cas-uh, Castiel. Look, before you say anything-"

"Oh, hi you!" April cheerfully said, "How are you doing in that place?"

"Uh...I'm doing okay", I told her hesitantly, "Listen, I have something to-"

"So, I have some good news!" she interrupted me excitedly, "I'm coming to see you!"

My body became so tense that I nearly dropped the phone. I closed my eyes, mentally telling myself to calm down.

"What?" I tried to sound pleased.

"Well, your stupid brother kept knocking on my door", April replied with annoyance, "He said he wouldn't leave me alone until I came and visited you. Then, I thought, you know what? I have been missing my gorgeous man lately. So I'm coming tomorrow".

"That's great", I laughed nervously, "But-"

"Damn it, work is calling me", April sighed, "I'll see you tomorrow".

"Uh, April?" I stopped her hesitantly.

"Yes?"

Now is the time. Tell her. Come on, just do it.

"What is it, Castiel?" April asked.

Just tell her what you did. Tell her that you slept with someone else. Tell her that you cheated on her, you coward.

"I-I-" I stuttered helplessly, "I'll see you tomorrow".

I cursed inside my head and rolled my eyes at my stupidity. I squeezed the phone tightly in my hands, just wanting her to hang up.

"Bye!" April said cheerfully.

Then the phone call was over. I would have to see her tomorrow. When I began to think about it more carefully, I realised that this wasn't such a bad thing. What was I thinking? Telling someone over the phone about something like this was terrible. At least I could properly tell her in person tomorrow. That's what I would do. I would be the decent person and tell her to her face. Now, at least I had time to prepare and plan what I was going to say.

I would apologise profoundly and beg for forgiveness. But would she break up with me? Maybe she'd understand that I was confused from being in here. Maybe, if I explained myself enough, she'd agree to forget about it and carry things on like normal.

So I wanted April to continue our relationship. Then where did that leave Dean and I? Surely Dean was only interested in a sexual relationship, which I regrettably gave him. But that was the last of it. Of course it was going to be awkward for a while but, if I went  about this the correct way, maybe we could go back to being...friends. Something felt wrong about that particular word but I decided to quickly shake it off and concentrate on the relationship I had with April. That was what I wanted...wasn't it?

Feeling more confused than usual, I carefully placed the phone back on its receiver and allowed the next person in line to use it. Walking slowly and almost cautiously, I made my way down the hall. I wasn't intending on going anywhere. I just needed to think. I needed to plan what I was going to say to April, how I was going to confess about what I did.

Honestly, I had never felt so guilty in my entire life. Cheating was something I hated a lot. I despised what affairs did to people and how they changed a person. Now I was the one I should be judging.