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Chapter 26

Jane POV

It feels like my heart has been riped out. Even tho it no longer beats, it still hurts. What happened? Why did she go from happy to see me awake to rejecting me, even before we even know for sure that we are mates. We only feel the pull of the bond and that's it. Well, for her that is. I actually love her, way before all this drama happened. But she didn't break the bond. Maybe she forgot or is planning on do it later? My head hurts and my heart is breaking. Why can't I be happy? Why do I have to lose the one most important to me?

First I hurt Kathy and Ashton and now this? So many questions that can't be answered. I turned on my side and buried my face in the pillow. Letting my tears soak into the fabric. I felt a warm hand rub small circles into my back. Something in me wished it was Kathy, coming back to take me back. That I was her everything and that she didn't mean to hurt me. But when i turned around, I'm faced with Lenny and Finny with sad smiles and pity in their eyes.

I don't want their pity. I want Kathy.Finny crawled into the bed with me and pulled me into his embrace. I closed my eyes and pressed my face into his chest, not wanting them to see me crying. Lenny sat in the chair that kathy sat there not even five mintues ago. Finny whispered sweet words to try and calm me down but it wasn't working. All I want is Kathy. I don't want Finny holding me, I Kathy to be here holding me. Why can't she be here with me? Why can't she be comforting me right now? But I know the reason why, I just don't want to believe it.

She was my everything. No, she is my everything. I need her as much as she needs me. I'm going to miss are time together. All the times that we laughed together. Our late night moive nights. The random act of silliness and just plain out weirdness that we both love. My sobs wouldn't subside and I could tell that Lenny and Finny were starting to feel awkward about the sitution. I soon heard the door creak open and in came Alpha Trevor and behind him was Ashton.

Ashton was limbing slightly but looked fairly heathy. He wore that familiar sad smile and the same pity in his eyes. That is what made me snap. I pulled away from Finny and jumped from the bed. Pulling all the wires off, the mechines began to beat and freak out. "Don't look at me like that! I don't need your fucking pity!" My eyes were burry and tears wouldn't stop flowing. Ashton flinched back at my sudden out burst.

I threw my arms up into the air, turning to the wall. I glared at it like it killed my family and my anger grew. Then the memories of the refection flashed in my mind. It played over and over again. I had enough. I drew my arm back and swung it into the hard brick, smashing a huge hole in the wall. You could see through the wall and into the room next door this one. Thank god that it was empty at the moment or who was in there would be seriously injuried.

Everyone jumped back to avoid of getting hit with the lose rubble. Ashton made his way to my side and placed his hand on my shoulder, only to have me shrug it off. "Jane, I know that you are upset from Kathy and we have no idea what's going on inside her head, but don't let it get you so angry. Where's that strong young woman that made so many people smile?" My eyes were glued to the floor.

Once again, Ashton placed his hands on my shoulders and pulled me into his chest. I tensed up under his touch but soon relaxed. I slowly wrapped my arms around his torso and tears pricked at my eyes. Feeling that same sadness. I cried into his embrace for an hour or so. They said I was heathy enough to be discharged from the pack hospital, as well as Ashton. Kathy was not yet discharged so she had to remain there.

Wevmade our way to the pack house in silence. Ashton and the Luna watched me with worry and caution. I know what they are thinking. They think that I'm going to do something stupid, right. Well, it's not so much as stupid but pitiful. Exiting the car, I made my way up the stairs only to be stopped by Ashton. I rolled my eyes in annyonce. Can't he let me be alone? Why can't I hurt myself when I know that I desrve it. I pull my arm out of his grip and holding it close to my chest.