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Chapter 30

'Picture is Christian at 17 years old'
'Song: Iris by Sleeping with Sirens'

~NOTE~ 'I messed up on how old Christian was. He's 17 with the three year jump. I went back tried to change the mistake, but I if I missed some just tell me and I go and fix them. Thanks. Now onto the story.'

Jane POV

I stare at Christian with worry. I know that he's going to yell and tell me that I ruined his life. I just know it. "Where in the hell were you!" He shouted as his face grew red. I stared down to the floor, not wanting to meet his eyes. My hands began to grow cold and slimy with sweat. I clenched them together in a tight ball. Tears filled my eyes as I thought of the ways he would yell and tell me that he is disgusted with me.

"Jane, look at me." He said firmly, voice unwavering. Slowly lifting my head, my eyes locked with his. There were so many emotions running through his eyes that I couldn't pin point the exact one. Soon his expression morfted into one of softness and concern. "Jane, where did you go?" He questioned, but this time alot softer in tone. "I-I...I.......I-" I couldn't get the words out. It was like they were stuck in the lump that formed in my throat.

Christian stepped closer only for me to take a step back. "Jane, please." He pleaded. Why is he acting like this? Shouldn't he be yelling at me and telling me how I should just go back to where ever I was? That I could've killed him? Why was he looking and acting so concerned over me?

The look of hurt was evident in his eyes. "Why?" Was all I said. I looked everywhere but at him. "Jane, Why did you leave us? You were gone for almost 3 years. We were all so worried. Mum and Papa thought that you were kidnapped but I was the only one that knew the real reason that you left. At least...I think I do." Christian stated.

My eyes snapped up to meet his and there stood my little brother. Eyes filled with pain and sadness. Tears lightly spilling over his cheeks. "C-christian?" I slowly and carefully walked toward him in caution. With hopeful eyes, I looked to him. "You dont hate me?" I questioned. He shooked his head with a small smile. "I could never hate you. You're my sister." With that statement, I was on the floor, crying my eyes out as Christian wrapped me up in his arms.

Sob after sob, broke though the silence of my room. Christian slowly rocked me back and forth as I soaked his shirt with my tears. Christian grew to into a man. He was taller than me. I felt small in his arms. To think that only 3 years ago he fit perfectly in my embrace.

After my tears came to a stop, I pulled my head from his chest, wiping my stray tears that still managed to fall. I looked up at Christian with a smile and he did the same. I pulled away from him and stood up from the floor. Christian following. I walked over to my bed and sat down, looking around the room. Nothing was moved. Everything was in the exact place it was when I had left. "You guys didn't move anything?" I questioned as Christian stood in front of me. He shrugged as his eyes moved around the room. "I guess we just didn't want it to be real, so by leaving everything as it was helped in some way. But it never stopped to cries that came from mum in the middle of the night.

I looked down, feeling ashamed of myself. "I only left to keep you and everyone else safe." I answered, my gaze never leaving the cream colored carpet of my room. "Safe from what?" Christian asked. I could hear the confusion in his voice. I sighed and returned my gaze to him. "Safe from me." My answer only make him more confused as his eyebrows scrunched together. "I..I don't understand." I stared. I rolled my eyes and turned my gaze to my small bear that Christian got me on my 12th birthday. He would've been 10 at the time.

It's so old that you can see the wear and tear in the arms and legs. You could see the places that I sown together again over and over. A small smile played on my lips as memories washed over me.

"At the time, Christian, I was unstable. I couldn't control my hunger and thirst. I could've killed you if I didn't stop. And when I saw you look at me with such fear and terror, it broke my heart. How could I do that to my little brother? I should've been a better sister. I should've been there for you. But no, I had to be a coward and run." I muttered, getting lost in my thoughts of what could've happened if I was here? What would my life be if I only went home earlier that night?

"Jane, stop. I understand that you wanted to keep us safe but why didn't tell us you were leaving? We could've helped you." Christian said as he placed a hand on my shoulder. I looked up at him. What would he have done to help me? What could've my parents had done to help me? Nothing that's what.

I stood from the bed and stared right into my little brother's eyes. "And what could've you done to help me? You, a human that knew nothing about vampires. Where would've you gotten the information to help me from?" My voice turned cold. My tone strong and firm. How could he have helped me. A 14 year old boy that just found out about vampires and werewolves and/or the supernatural world helping a newly transformed vampire control her blood thirst and hunger to kill someone?

"Look Jane, that's not what I meant-" He began only for me to cut him off. "Then what did you mean, Christian?!" His eyes grew sad as he looked down. After a few minutes in silence, I sighed. All the tension and anger released from my body. "Whatever, it doesn't matter anymore. Just go. I want to rest." I mumbled as I crawled back into my bed and pulled the comforter over me.

After a few seconds I heard Christian's light footsteps leave the room followed by the sound of the door clicking shut. I closed my eyes trying to fall into a world of darkness.

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'Hey guys, sorry that I haven't updated. I know, I know. Excuses, excuses. But I was more busy with the all my finals and keystones for school along with last minute work for the end of the year. I wasn't able to update. I hope this makes it up to you.'

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