A/N- i wrote this cuz i was bored, it was meant to be marisson for a request but amour suited it more so here we go! Sorry whoever requested marisson I'm writing it now. The ending is realy crigey but i want them to be happy :)
I was twelve, I was stupid. I fell in love with a boy who could never truly love me back. I called myself a performer and the show went on.
I was thirteen, I was love-struck. We parted and I stayed up and counted stars, counting down the days until he came back. I cried but smiled and whispered, "I'll see him again."
I was fourteen, I was desperate. He decided to stay longer and I wanted, no, needed him to come back. I wrote tons of letters that were never read. I hadn't smiled in so long.
I was fifteen, I was in tears. He came back but he had a girlfriend, Lillie. I wanted to hate her but I liked her too much. I told him how I felt and he simply said, "oh." I knew he didn't feel the way I did but that instant my world shattered.
I was sixteen, he was sixteen. Lillie died and he was desperate. I felt slightly happy but I know I shouldn't. I was silent when he took his anger out on me, even if it meant I had no one to rely on again, ever. I cried until I forgot why I started crying in the first place.
I was seventeen, I was calm. Ash never talked to me again, I didn't even know if he was alive. I didn't particularly care anymore. I carried on, alive and not living. Staring at the sky waiting for hours to pass. The sky was grey, it stared at me and whispered, "This is all your fault." Calem asked me out, I said yes.
I was eighteen, I wasn't a little girl anymore. I dated Calem, but I didn't think it would last. I was the one who made him keep going with me, even though I knew he clearly loved Shauna more. I needed someone to make me hold on, to stop me from falling and never getting up.
I was nineteen, I was single. Calem left me and somehow I was left clinging onto this little bit of what remained of my life. I didn't want to carry on but I didn't want to end it either. Time passed, no one acknowledged my birthday, not even me. Little Bonnie sent a (later tear-stained) greeting three days late, which I left at the bottom of my wardrobe never to be seen.
I was twenty, Shauna left the region. Calem and I started again, and months later he proposed to me. I said wait. I found out Ash was alive but that didn't matter. Calem asked me again a little while before my birthday, I said yes. We got married in Shauna's face. Somehow, I was happy. But I didn't smile.
I am twenty-one. I left Calem to be on my own, I don't know who he is with now. I think it's Shauna. The two of them were always meant to be together. I saw Ash at a league tournament, I don't know what he's trying to do but I felt something lift in my heart when his smile and his gaze seemingly met mine. I am twenty-one but I still love a boy who didn't love me back. Maybe he did now. He came to me after the league and he said he missed me. I smiled for the first time in so long.
I was twelve, I was dense. I was too excited about achieving my dream and enjoying my journey to notice anything else. Serena fell in love with me but I never noticed.
I was thirteen, I was in awe. Alola was the sunniest, loveliest region I'd ever known, with some of the loveliest people I'd known in my life. I went to school and I met friends and a girl named Lillie. I smiled because who didn't want to smile there?
I was fourteen, I was the happiest I'd ever been. I told Serena I was going to stay longer in Alola and she never replied afterward. I learnt so much more about pokemon and I made such good friends that didn't leave me after a year or so. I never went five minutes without smiling and laughing.
I was fifteen, I got a girlfriend. I knew what love was. Lillie was beautiful and sweet and loved me as much as I loved her. I went back to Kalos and saw Serena. She told me she loved me and I didn't know how to react. Lillie was angry at me for not telling her and angry at herself for not doing more. I told her not to worry.
I was sixteen, my world had shattered. Lillie was dead and there was no more pretending. She was left sleeping in the sands on a beach in Alola next to her old home on a Sunday morning. Serena tried to talk to me but I was too wrapped up in my own feelings. I took everything out on her and she was silent. It scared me a little thinking about it now but not then.
I was seventeen, going on eighteen. I went back to Kanto and left Serena and Lillie behind. I found a friend in Gary again. We laughed together like when I was ten. I saw Misty again but this time as Gary's girlfriend. So much had happened since I'd left, I'd met so many new people, some I would never see again and probably had forgotten me, and some that were probably thinking of me now.
I was eighteen, I had grown. I'd revisited all the old regions I'd been to, saw all my old friends that I hadn't seen before. Brock was still single but managing the gym; Tracey was dating Misty's sister Daisy and was to become Gary's assistant when he became the next professor Oak; 'May was dating Drew; Max was a young talented coordinator who had a fairly obvious crush on a certain blonde-haired girl; Dawn was trying to beat May and pondering over who she would date; Paul was still training; Barry was keeping management over a Unova-born young woman he liked; Kenny was trying to beat Dawn; Conway came out of nowhere; Iris was now champion of Unova; Cilan was still gym leader and an excellent cook as always; Trip was training to beat Iris (again); Bianca was with Barry; Clemont was now managing the gym, his father's job and being a lecturer at pokemon schools; Bonnie was travelling the regions and dating Max; Sawyer was the new Kalos Champion; And Alain was dating Mairin. They were happy, especially the couples. I wondered if I would ever find someone to become a couple with.
I was nineteen, I was single. I wondered if I should try and go on a pokemon journey again. I'd never achieved my dream. I decided to wait and see. My friends all sent me birthday cards, except Serena. I wondered if she was alive, and where she was if she was. Did she still think I was angry at her? She never replied to any of my other letters anymore.
I was twenty, I decided to start journeying. This time it was just me and my pokemon. I started off with just pikachu and we both remembered the good old days. I found out Serena was alive by looking her up online and I sighed in relief and smiled.
I am twenty-one. I entered the Kalos league again, I became the new champion. I saw Serena watching me in the crowd. I smiled and waved at her and I saw her eyes lit up. Something in my heart lifted when I saw her happy. I am twenty-one and yet I love a girl who doesn't love me back. I found Serena after the league and I told her I missed her. She smiled, and so did I. We hadn't smiled together in so long.
I am Serena Yvonne.
I am Ash Ketchum.
I am in love.
I am in love.
I fell in love with the wrong person once.
I fell in love with someone else once.
I am Serena Yvonne, and I became lost for stupid reasons, until the light came back to me.
I am Ash Ketchum, and I hurt someone I loved without knowing, and we made up.
We forgave eachother.
We realised what happened.
We left the past behind.
Love is forgiveness, but the forgiveness is what led to forgiving again and falling in love.
We fell in love. We got married, We had children. We were happy.
And we smiled together.
