Embarrassment - (An Everlark Fanfic)

Chapter 1 - Appearances

Hope is the only thing,

Stronger than fear.

- Hunger games

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Katniss' POV

My pale slender fingers grip the heated metal, the boot of my car. Mustering up enough force I slam it shut hearing the ever so satisfying click of the lock. The suitcases are in their metal cage now. One suitcase weighing more than the three of us going. Prim has always overpacked, there's no telling her what to do. Its like poking a hibernating bear. Ah yes, the time has come for our trip to town 4. The beaches and tanned blondes in bikinis are found in a large quantity there, every guys dream. The very reason why my friend Gale introduced by inviting himself along.

Yet unlike Gale, Prima and I will be spending quite a long time over there. Gale you may ask? About a week, university commitments and the fact that this semesters holiday is coming to a close. I don't miss uni at all, I threw that part of me away two years ago with the toss my graduation cap. Funny how time flies and somehow fate has gifted me with a young successful career in my firm. Clients are extensive and so was that highly contemporary building I designed in the centre of the Capitol, building construction carried out at this very moment. 

My wage and job placement has allowed me to move into upstate town two. Of course I designed the house myself, what architect would I be if not? It's big enough for our small family of three to live in; My mother, Prim and I. My mother managed to find work in the local hospital following the move from 12 to 2, she couldn't maintain the occupation in 12 due to the travel costs on the freeways.

Why would she want to go back to 12 anyway? regardless for work or not. I sure as hell wouldn't. Too many unpleasant memories, too many to name; my father, the financial situation left after is mortality and my fiancé. Ex fiancé. The three F's and I couldn't imagine going back to the place which caused myself so much pain and heartbreak. I still haven't seen my high school sweetheart since that fateful wedding day. No one has.

It is really a wonder how an individuals mind can wander in itself so deeply and not know about it until another person pulls you out of the depths of your brain and back to the painful reality of life. I don't notice I'm in deep though but Prim certainly has, snapping her long manicured fingers in my face.

"Earth to Katniss.....uhhhh......Katniss?.....KATNISS!"

"Yes Prim?"

"You must be on some good shit I swear. How much you paying?" 

"What are you talking about?" I question. My sister?! How does she know what that is to say such a thing about that.

"Ummmm nevermind.....you were just in a fairy land." She mumble incoherently under her breath. "Gale is coming by soon so we better hurry up with the packing you slowcoach!"

"Okay, okay! chillax would you? You are such a stress-head plus, we only have one more bag left" I say pointing at the Victorias Secret gym bag slumped on the floor, filled with sugary treats which is quite ironic.

I stand there in the middle of the driveway, on this beautiful day staring at the sky wondering how my life turned out this good from the abyss of darkness. Of course my thoughts cannot help but resort back to the ultimate question; why? why did he leave? Is he okay? Is he alive? As much is I despise him I don't think I'll ever be prepared if I hear word of his death.

"Katniss can I ask you something?" Prim says shyly from the passenger seat of the car. I lean on her door and reply smartly,

"Didn't you just?"