Jessie Jones

Chapter 24: I promise I will tell you everything

Nate's pov

I didn't know why I felt  guilty when Jessie saw us. It's not like I'm cheating on her or something. We aren't even dating and I had never told her my feelings for her. I didn't even know if she feels the same way but I felt so guilty. I couldn't concentrate in all my classes, I kept checking the time waiting for lunch so I can apologize. I had no idea what I wanted to apologize for. I knew for sure it was not just because she caught me with Nicole but also for ignoring her for two whole weeks.

When I first saw the pictures, I didn't know what to think. I felt like Jessie lied to me about being someone else, I felt cheated. Why didn't she just tell me she was my old best friend? Why did she have to do this to me. So this was what all those meetings , those looks and gossip in the park were about and that was why she was close with my dad. I also felt confused. She was once my best friend and I didn't remember one bit about her. How? Why? Why didn't anyone tell me about it. I felt deceived by all of them. None of them could tell me a thing even dad. I couldn't talk to anyone for a week. I locked myself in my room and kept looking at my mom's pictures. If she were here nothing could have happened. I vowed to myself not to trust anyone again. If only I knew trusting people will end up hurting me, I would have never trusted​ anyone not even dad. I couldn't even believe dad was part of this.  To tell you I was surprised would be an understatement. I could have never thought I have known Jessie since I was in kindergarten.   

Now that I think of it. Jessie had no fault in anything. I had no right to be angry with her. She did nothing wrong. I imagined how she felt when I couldn't recognize her. She must have been really upset. All she did was try as much as she could to get her best friend back. To make her best friend remember her and I am here being angry and blaming her for not telling me I was once her best friend. I wonder what would have happened if she told me I was her best friend in the first place without any proof. I would probably laugh at her face and call her crazy.

After two weeks, I felt a little bit better and decided to go to school. I decided to talk to the one person that didn't lie to me; Nicole then later apologize to Jessie. She was so happy when I approached her after so many months of ignoring her. Since the day we broke up we didn't say another word to each other. I told her I wanted to talk to her privately and she took me to an empty room. I guess she mistook the word "privately" because well you know what happened next. She caught me off guard and I lost control. I kept seeing Jessie in her. It was when Rivers opened the door that I realized what was going on and quickly arrange myself. The disgust and disappointment on his face was so evident that I quickly came back to my senses. I immediately started feeling guilty.

After the bell for lunch went off, I started looking for Jessie. She wasn't in the  Cafeteria so I checked the garden she wasn't there too. I checked all the hallways, nothing. I even asked a girl to check the restroom for me but she said no one was there. 'Where the hell could she be?!' I then remembered​ the school has a library. I haven't used it in years so I even forgot it exits. I entered the library and started looking for her. I saw a small figure in a corner sipping what seems to look like tea with a plate of sandwich in front of her and​ a book in her hand. I started approaching the table but Nicole beat me to it.

"Do you know why he chose me over you?" I heard Nicole asking. Who? I started wondering. And only one name kept popping to my head. Are they talking about me? But I didn't choose Nicole over Jessie. I actually chose Jessie over Nicole. Jessie ignored her acting as if she wasn't talking to her.

"I asked you a question," she said waving her hands in front of her.

"I don't like answering stupid questions asked by stupid people." I didn't know Jessie had the courage to reply Nicole. Did I ever tell you how much I love her? Oh yes I have.

"First of all, he didn't chose you over me and you know what even if he did I don't care." She said picking up her books. Of course I didn't chose Nicole over her but if I did wouldn't she care? I felt hurt. Didn't she care about me? I was sure she did maybe she stopped caring when I started ignoring her.  She started walking towards my direction so I quickly hid behind a shelf.

"You know even if you don't like answering  stupid questions asked by stupid people, I think you will like to hear the answer to this question. It's very important if you want to know why Nate doesn't remember you."  Nicole said making my heart leap. I really wanted to know why I don't remember her so I walked closer to where they were. My heart was beating faster. Why was I afraid?

"It is because you killed his mom."

"No f**king way!" I didn't know when I shouted. I had already exposed myself so I came out of my hiding place. Both of them turned to look at me. I walked to Jessie's side and grabbed her hand.

Nicole laughed evilly." So now you are on her side? A few hours ago you were eating me up."

"It was a mistake!"I shouted at her.

"Stop denying it, just accept the truth and move on with the grieve of knowing you have killed a person, the mother of your best friend for that matter."

I ignored her and started whispering  soothing words to Jessie. " Don't believe her Jessie, She is lying , don't believe anything she says." I told her even though I was trying to convince myself.

"Believe it or not Nate Brown she killed you mom." Nicole said, flipped her hair then walked away. I tighten my hold on Jessie's​ hand and looked at her face.

"How did I kill her?" She asked.

"Don't worry about what she said. She is just saying that because she is jealous of our relationship, I assure you it is nothing to worry about. Please." I told her.

"I'm not so sure about that."

"I want to know everything. I want to know all that happened." I told her. I have been kept in the dark for far too long. I'm tired of all the secrets. I want to know everything.

"Me too." she said with a sigh.

"And there is only one person on this earth who knows everything." Rivers said from behind me. I didn't even notice him there. I even forgot he was in school. And next to him was Evans staring at us.

"Dad"

"Nate's Dad"

"Mr brown,"

"Mr brown"
The four of us breathed out.

"We tried several times, he isn't going to tell us anything." Evans said.

"Trust me, he will." I told them with a small grin. 

"Then what are we waiting for?" Rivers asked helping Jessie pack up.  Throughout the ride to our house, my heart kept beating fast. I grabbed the steering wheel tightly praying what Nicole said is not true. Even if it is true, how?  Did she put poison in her food? Did she drug her? I push my horrid thought aside as I pulled up the driveway. We reached our house in few minutes. Dad was not home.

I took a knife and waited for him to come back,  I kept pacing up and down anxiously in the living room. I can't​ wait for him to come back and digest over everything. I can't wait to know everything. An hour later we heard his car horn. I waited for him  to unlock the front door. Immediately I heard the click sound, I stood in my position with a knife resting on my neck.

"Tell me everything or I will kill myself!" I screamed before he could even say anything. He took a sharp intake of breath whilst scanning the environment making sure he was in his house.

"Tell me everything or I will kill myself." I shouted.

"Everything about what?" He asked acting like he didn't know what I was talking about.

"I see you don't mind loosing your only son, I wonder what the media will say about a son of a multi billionaire committing suicide." I said pressing the knife closer to my neck.

"I can't wait to join mom." I said with a small smile then pressed the knife on my neck waiting to just push it a little hard to be die. The others in the room were looking at me with terrified expressions on their faces.

"No wait! I will tell you, I promise I will tell you everything."  He finally said when he realized that I was quiet serious about killing myself.