Kiss the light goodbye

chapter 5

Bailey’s POV: 

I didn’t know what to do, I panicked, I couldn’t face him, not after what he saw, what if he gets me in trouble, but the expression on his face, it was strange I have never seen anything like that before, there is something about that man that I can’t put my finger on.

I ran home and dropped on the couch, I know I’m never going to hear the end of it when my mother and father find out I skipped school, I started getting the shakes, I knew what I needed, it was my drugs, I have only been taking drugs for a week now, 3 times so far and already I get withdrawals when I don’t take them, but it isn’t like it matters, I need them and it’s my best mind blocker besides my razor.

I got up and went to the bathroom and made my lines once again, I only made 3 this time, I slowly started on them, getting tiny hits of power and the incredible high, finally I had finished all three lines, I sat there for a minute to let my body adjust to the massive hit I just took, I stood up steadily and cleaned up then went and crashed on my bed, using my remote I turned on my music and started humming, I suddenly got the urge to jump up and sing, standing on my bed I grabbed my brush and started singing alone with the song;

Hope the wound heals but it never does

That's cause you're at war with love

You're at war with love, yeah

These battle scars don't look like they're fading

Don't look like they're ever going away

They ain't never gonna change

These battle...

Never let a wound ruin me

But I feel like ruin's wooing me

Arrow holes, they never close from Cupid on a shooting spree

Feeling stupid cause I know it ain't no you and me

But when you're trying to beat the odds up

Been trying to keep your nods up

And you know that you should know

And let her go

But the fear of the unknown

Hold another lover strong

Sends you back into the zone

With no Tom Hanks to bring you home

A lover not a fighter

On the front line with a poem

Trying to write yourself a rifle

Maybe sharpen up a stone

To fight the tanks and drones of you being alone

I wish I never looked, I wish I never touched

I wish that I could stop loving you so much

Cause I'm the only one that's trying to keep us together

When all of the signs say that I should forget her

I wish you weren't the best, the best I ever had

I wish that the good outweighed the bad

Cause it'll never be over (never be over) until you tell me it's over

These battle scars don't look like they're fading