Kiss the light goodbye

Chapter 20

***hey my lovelies, finally chapter 20 is up!!! i am so sorry for the extremely late update, but i hope you do enjoy and please until the next chapter is up could you check out the deepest cut and let me know what you think***

Bailey's POV:

They were talking for ages outside, I really do love Lucifer, he has always been so nice to me and cared for me when others haven't, but what he did with drake scared me, and I felt like a toy, why would Lucifer let that happen.

I curled up in a ball, covering myself with the thin sheet that was on the bed and started crying...I did clutch my wrist and dug my nails across the cuts in hopes to slice them open again.

"Bailey...are you ok?" Lucifer sighed sitting down on the bed.

"Im fine" I said still crying.

"Could you sit up and look at me" Lucifer gently asked making me cry harder as I suddenly rushed up and wrapped my arms around lucifers waist.

He chuckled and patted my head whilst I cried a bit longer.

"Bailey...can we talk about before?" he asked sitting me up and wiping my tears.

"Yeah" I said looking at his bare chest and then reality kicked in and my eyes trailed down.

"D-DID YOU GO OUTSIDE LIKE THAT?"I panicked my face turning red.

"Yeah" he said.

"Hahaha" I said imagining the two of them outside naked with hard on's fighting each other, that's priceless.

"Im glad you're laughing again...so can we talk now?" he asked again.

"yeah...sorry just got carried away...anyway what's there to talk about...that drake who is a werewolf wanted to fuck me and that instead of objecting my boyfriend allowed him to and also joined in...DO YOU KNOW HOW SCARED I WAS...I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO BE RAPED...I've never done things like that and I didn't want to with a stranger" I shouted.

"im really sorry, I don't know what came over me, sure I was mad he wanted to claim you but I thought if I said no he would try another time, so I wanted to claim you first and beat him...im sorry I made you go through that" he frowned hugging me.

"You know what let's just forget about it, your forgiven, water under the bridge" I explained...I can't get angry because then he might not want me anymore.

"Bailey...i..."Lucifer started but before he finished the phone rang...I bolted up and headed down stairs to answer it.

"Hello" I said breathless.

"Bailey, honey its mom...you sound funny are you ok?" she asked worried.

"Yeah mom, just out of breath from running to the phone" I laughed.

"Ok then...so I have some news" she started.

"Really, how's my little sis doing?" I worried.

"Well that's the news...after some more tests they found some cancerous lumps in her lungs...they have said that surgery is needed but the chances are 50/50 of it working" she sobbed.

"Working? What does that mean" I panicked.

"It means, she will die without surgery very soon but with the surgery there are no guarantees it will be removed completely and death rates are high in these surgeries" she explained.

"WHAT...then say no...I don't want her dying" I said now hyperventilating.

"And you think I do...I don't want this at all but she's my baby and I can't help her" she said sobbing harder.

"Can I speak to her...I mean this could be the last time right" I said trying to hold back my tears.

"Yeah...I'll put her on" she said walking into the room, I could here dad and mom saying something inaudible.

"Big brother! Big brother, I missed you" she giggled.

"Hey sweetie, how are you?" I asked.

"Im ok, the doctor said I need surgery...when can I see you again big brother?" she questioned.

"Soon...I promise...very soon" I said as I shed a tear.

"i-love you big brother...see you so..." she said but she started coughing severely into the phone.

"ronnie...ronnie...RONNIE" I panicked.

"Bailey, I'll call you back, the doctor has to come see her...bye honey" mom rushed.

"Bye" I said as she hung up the phone.

"LUCIFER..." I shouted dropping to the ground, I wanted to cut so badly.

"Bailey...what's wrong? Bailey..." he panicked scooping me up.

"I want to cut" I whispered crying.

"What?" he asked confused.

"I WANT TO CUT...I WANT TO DIE...PLEASE..." I screamed hitting his bare chest with my fists until I had enough and rested my head on his chest as he hugged me tight.

"Talk to me...please" he sighed carrying me up the stairs.

"My little sister could die soon...and I can't handle that...I just...I can't" I sobbed.