Kiss the light goodbye

chapter nine

Unknown POV:

I watched him through his window, I felt my heart drop seeing him crying, damn that devil, treating my mate like this.

My name is drake Devons, I am a werewolf, an alpha to be exact, bailey is my mate and I found him about 3 weeks ago, I do plan to tell him, but not sure how. 

“What are you doing drake?” 

“Nothing Chris, just looking” I said bluntly to Chris.

“Don’t lie to me, im your brother and I could always tell when you were lying” Chris said with a sigh.

“You got me… what would you say if I said I have found my mate?” I asked eagerly.

“REALLY? You finally found her? What’s she like? Does she know what you are?” he said bombarding me with questions.

“Whoa... Slow down, I have found my mate, but there are a few complications or rather obstacles which will make things difficult” I said pinching the bridge of my nose.

“What do you mean?” he asked curious.

“Well one she is not a she, she is a he, my mate is male, and also a young teenager” I stated, I saw Chris’s face and couldn’t make it out.

“Are you serious?” he said with disbelief.

“Yeah I am, have a look, right there in the window” I pointed to a sad bailey sitting on his bed, I looked at Chris and saw his expressions and frowned.

“Do you hate me now that im gay big brother?” I questioned.

“No of course not, I am worried about the boy though, I mean you’re at least double his age and human” he said with a sigh.

“I know, I considered that, I might not even tell him, but Chris that isn’t the most important part, my mate also has another person who wants him and he is a hell of a lot stronger than us, I don’t know if I even stand a chance” I sobbed.

“Who are you talking about, more powerful than us?” Chris questioned.

“Lucifer, he left hell for a while and found bailey and is in love with him” I said getting pissed.

“What!! No way, I can’t believe it, you better stay out of this drake or you could get hurt” he said worried.

“I know, but I love him and want him, I mean what would you do if it were Samantha in baileys position?” I asked.

“Don’t bring my wife into it” he sighed.

“Im just saying” I said sarcastically.

“I have to go, I said to Sammy I was going hunting for an hour and i have been longer she will be worried” he stated.

“Hahaha, she has got you house trained big bro” I said laughing.

“Shut up idiot, drake it was nice seeing you again, it’s been so long since we last spoke, I was worried after father’s death that you blamed yourself” he said sadly.

“I did blame myself for months but I moved on, I just wanted to give you your own life with your mate and not impose so you would still have to support your brother, I didn’t want that, besides im an adult, I can support myself and I do, so there is nothing to worry about” I said with a big grin.

“Alright, but promise you will visit more, ok?” he begged.

“Will do, it’s a promise” I said giving him a hug and seeing him on his way.

After Chris left, I stayed and watched bailey some more, I couldn’t get enough of him, I just want to meet him, touch him, and be with him.

I kept watching him but something was off, I smelt something different, it was blood, I looked closer at bailey and his back was turned, I felt a pang in my chest, I could hear his heartbeat, he was in pain

‘I want to die, he left me, he hated me, everyone hates me, there is no point in living, im worthless’

I could hear those words echoing in his head, is that really what he thinks?

I jumped out the tree and bolted for the window, I couldn’t let him die, I could show him that life can be worth it, before I knew it I slid open his window and ripped the razor out his hand and pinned him to the ground.

BAILEY’S POV:

He left me, he said he loved me, I guess I was right, no one could love me. I sat on the edge of my bed clutching the sheets trying to breathe, I couldn’t do this anymore, I am so sick of feeling like this.

I pulled my razor out, held it to my wrist and pushed down.

Come on do it, just do it, no one cares if you live or die.

With that I slit my wrist 2 times long and deep, watching the blood seep out.

Come on, again, again, cut again, that wasn’t enough, it’ll never be enough, no one likes you, your worthless, you fag, your just trash, your parents didn’t want you, your boyfriend didn’t want you.

Another slash, and another and another, until I saw my whole arm covered in red slashes, the blood had stained my sheets and carpet but I didn’t care.

The final blow come on, do it, just die.

I held it to my wrist again ready to cut the final deep cut, but before I could blink I was knocked and pinned to the ground.

“DON’T EVER THINK YOU’RE WORTHLESS” a man said looking into my eyes, filled with sorrow.

“Who the fuck are you, what are you doing here, and GET OFF ME” I screamed. He got off me, and stood back.

“Im here to help, I don’t want you to hurt yourself, please let me help you clean-up” he smiled.

“I don’t need help, just leave me alone” I clutched my head, feeling dizzy fell to the floor.