Accidental Love

28.

Song: Way down we go. By Kaleo

Alec's POV

I can't believe I'm about to tell Trish this. I never open up to anyone. EVER.

But something about her just pulls me closer, no matter how hard I try to drift away.

I just can't have a repeat of my past, because it's like everyone I ever care about just gets ripped away from me before I can even blink twice.

Something about Trish just makes staying away a lot harder than it should be.

But she can't know this. No one can. Yet, here I am about to spill my past to her.

Taking a deep breath, I try to control this roller coaster of emotions rolling through me.

I really hope I'm not making a big mistake.

"So everything started when my dad got this new job from a high school friend" All my bottled up emotions came pouring out as I remembered everything like it was just yesterday. "We were struggling at first, since my parents had children they definately weren't prepared for."

Sparing a look in Trish's direction, I can see the sympathy and worry clear as day.

I guess she knows where this is going, well, at least she thinks she does.

Taking a deep breath in, trying to suck up my emotions, I continue where I left off. "This friend of his, apparently had a crush on him throughout their high school life. The thing is, she never liked my mom because she was with my dad and their relationship was pretty serious. They were inseparable. So, this friend of my dad's, her name was Anastacia, she was always jealous and would try to ruin their relationship. My dad, being the dumb ass he is, never noticed and eventually him and Anastacia became really close. Mom tried warning him about her but he never listened and would continuously take her side. So life continued like this until I was born. Throughout my years, until I was five, Anastacia would hurt me anytime I was around. Of course she would keep it on a low. I never really understood but eventually it dawned on me so I told my mom, who then told my dad. She was more than willing to kill Anastacia for even laying a finger on me but dad called me a liar and for the first time, he hurt me. My mom tried fighting him back but she just got hurt in the process."

I paused my rambling, took a few deep breaths and wouldn't dare look in Trish's direction even though I could feel her heated gaze on me.

"Dad would hurt my mom and I almost every night. The piece of shit would come home drunk, we never knew why. We did nothing to hurt him but he hurt us..."

My breathing was becoming ragged so I paused for a bit again and this time, spared Trish a glance.

She looked distraught.

It warmed my heart to see that she actually cared, but I quickly let the feeling vanish.

"When I was ten, I found out my mother was pregnant." A humorless laugh left my lips.

"Apparently she was having an affair with some dude from work and accidentally got pregnant. She told me everything and made me promise not to tell dad. But you already know, you can't hide a pregnancy forever, so he eventually found out... The heartless son of a bitch threatened to kill the baby so mom packed her things and left. Obviously she lived a happy life with her new love, whoever he was, and left me behind. So while I was left to fend for myself and was being abused, she lived a happy life. Sadly, she lived nearby and was found by my dad three years later. He dragged her sorry ass back home and brought the baby with him. Apparently her new play toy didn't give two fucks and let him take them."

I could feel the tears threatening to fall but I tried my best to keep them at bay.

Trish was slowly inching closer in my direction every now and again.

"Of course when she came back, she was punished and taught a lesson. I took the baby and went up to my room so he wouldn't hurt it, sorry it was a girl."

My eyes automatically closed as I remembered her.

"She was so beautiful. Her eyes were a bright blue, that was the first thing I noticed about her. She had my brown hair and I couldn't be happier with the strong resemblance she had to me. Her name was Alexandra Adeline Alisia Berry Burnard. One long ass name, but I loved it. From that moment, I knew protecting her was the only thing there was for me to do. It was all I wanted to do. Even though I was only thirteen, I made a promise to keep her safe no matter what. I would always take blames for her, the slaps for her, the punishments, the abuse."

By now, I knew the tears had escaped.

Fuck.

I didn't want Trish to see me like this. No one is ever suppose to see me like this.

Before I could say another word, I felt little, soft fingers gently swipe the tears away.

I looked up to see tears falling from Trish's eyes.

By this point, I had no control over my emotions.

Fuck. I feel like a pussy.

"Alec." She whispered, snapping me out of my thoughts. "You need to stop. You can finish the story another time. Just relax and think about the happy memories you have with her... It will help. Trust me. Close your eyes, take deep breaths, think about her beautiful, bright blue eyes, the strong resemblance she had with you, her dazzling smile, the boys you knew you would kill if they went after her. Think about her laugh, her favourite everything. Think about the fact that you were lucky enough to at least have memories with her, the fact that you at least knew her in real life and not through old pictures... The fact that you knew she loved you. "

I was mesmerized by the beautiful creature standing before me. She looked so heartbroken for me.

It was like those words were meant not just for me, but for her also.

I could tell there was something behind those words.

And I intend to find out.

I have fallen in way too deep.

I have fallen so deep for Trish, I feel like I can't fall any deeper.

Yet here I am, still falling.

Amxryy

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