Accidental Love

30.

I was currently outside the school building enjoying the sight of nature.

The wind whipped my loose strands, as my arms folded across my chest trying to warm the slight chill.

Slow footsteps approaching caused my entire demeanour to change.

"Calm down it's just me."

My eyes shut in frustration as a sigh escaped my lips.

"What is it Alec?"

"Look I know I'm not the easiest person to put up with but I- I feel things with you that I have never felt before. When I'm with you everything is just different. It's alot better. I guess it's just not a feeling I'm used to so I treat you the way I do to hide it all." His eyes were anywhere but on me.

I felt my heart warm at his sudden words.

This is something I would've never expected from Alec.

I could feel my palms moisten as I was at a complete loss for words.

"Look Trish, I'm not saying I can change just for you. It will take some time. My life is one hell of a mess right now, all i need is patience."

My silence brought a sigh to his lips.

"Alec," I whispered breathlessly.

Realising no other words would follow, he spoke again.

"I'm really sorry for the way I treated you in the past. I can not guarantee you a better me anytime soon but I'm working on it."

Those were his final words before slowly walking back through the school doors.

I wanted to stop him, I wanted to call out his mame.

But I just couldn't bring myself to do so.

My feet were rooted to the ground, my body unmoving.

All I did was stare helplessly at his retreating figure.

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My finger lingered over the send button.

I was having a mental debate with myself.

My message to Alec was typed out and re-read repeatedly for the past ten minutes.

But I was so unsure.

One part of me wanted to send this message while the other refused.

Sighing in defeat, I shut my laptop and called Brian.

He was my only form of comfort at this very moment.

'Hey Trish what's up?'

'Hey Brian. I was wondering, do you want to hang out probably at the park?'

I heard shuffling on his end before he grunted in frustration.

'Sure I really need it anyway. But when exactly?'

'Right now I was hoping.'

'Sure I'll be there in a few.'

We bid our goodbyes before ending the call.

Was hanging out with Brian a good idea?

He did ask me out on a date but I don't feel any sort of emotion toward him, only a friendly one.

I guess I'll break the news to him today knowing we'll be alone.

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I kicked little rocks that stood in my path as an awkward silence surrounded Brian and I.

"So what's up?" He asked obviously trying to change the current mood.

"Nothing really. I wanted to tell you something actually." I went straight to the point, sitting at a bench nearest to us.

He soon followed, eyeing me suspiciously.

"Go on then."

My heart hammered against my chest at the thought of hurting Brian.

But I expected a feeling of relief by the end of it, knowing I would have gotten everything off my chest.

"This whole thing about us." My fingers fidgeted on my lap due to nervousness.

I noticed Brian's fall in the slightest as if expecting what was to come next.

"I'm sorry Brian but all I see for us is friendship. Nothing more. Don't get me wrong I really like you alot, just not in the way you would have anticipated."

I let out a strangled breath as my eyes lock with Brian's.

What I did not expect was an understanding smile.

"Actually Trish. Yes I like you, alot might I add, but it was obvious you never felt the same. I'm just relieved you were honest with me."

My mood brightened at his reply.

"Besides," he nudged my shoulder playfully, "I know you have a thing for Alec."

I all but choked on air.

"What!?" I screeched in pure horror.

"Oh cut the bullshit Trish. It's as clear as day. In fact, me and the guys have been talking about this all day. I'll admit, it hurt like a bitch, but I'll get over it."

My eyes were just about ready to pop out of their sockets.

"Ohmygod," was all I could mutter in this moment knowing there was no denying the truth.

"Whatever," I sighed in defeat.

Brian smirked in victory and stood, pulling me with him.

"Break up hug?" He asked hopeful.

I only rolled my eyes but gave in, sporting a barely visible smile.

There was ruffling in the bushes behind me and before I could comprehend what it was, I was snatched out of Brian's grip.

"I thought I warned you about going near her!" An all too familiar voice boomed as arms were protectively wrapped around my waist.

What the hell was he doing here?

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